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Nullm

Nullm

Student
Apr 5, 2019
160
This all story might actually be a hoax,
Especially that "I know him" comments, give real "trust me bro" vibes,
Could be an elaborate scare tactic, by pro lifers,
Otherwise I dont see any other explanation, about drinking poison and surviving.
Tokyoboo I do apologize, if I'm wrong
Right now I'm on the verge of ordering sn to use immediately as it arrives, and can't reconcile with the fact that there is no escape for me.
 
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geepeedee

geepeedee

no future
Feb 24, 2026
372
My stomach pain is continuing tho, any idea what it might be, ig ima go and scan my stomach Tommorow
drink lots of water? i got nuttin bro. take care of yourself.
This all story might actually be a hoax,
Especially that "I know him" comments, give real "trust me bro" vibes,
Could be an elaborate scare tactic, by pro lifers,
Otherwise I dont see any other explanation, about drinking poison and surviving.
Tokyoboo I do apologize, if I'm wrong
Right now I'm on the verge of ordering sn to use immediately as it arrives, and can't reconcile with the fact that there is no escape for me.
this seems highly unlikely.
 
Le temps perdu

Le temps perdu

existential torture
Dec 10, 2025
445
My stomach pain is continuing tho, any idea what it might be, ig ima go and scan my stomach Tommorow
i wonder if it might be due to the oxidation of SN, or is it possible the stuff isn't SN but sodium nitrate? (sorry if I got that wrong)
wishing you the best for tomorrow's stomach scan, I hope you recover soon
 
findingpeace08

findingpeace08

Member
Aug 6, 2026
30
This all story might actually be a hoax,
Especially that "I know him" comments, give real "trust me bro" vibes,
Could be an elaborate scare tactic, by pro lifers,
Otherwise I dont see any other explanation, about drinking poison and surviving.
Tokyoboo I do apologize, if I'm wrong
Right now I'm on the verge of ordering sn to use immediately as it arrives, and can't reconcile with the fact that there is no escape for me.
It's not cool to accuse someone of that, and it doesn't even make sense, pro-lifers would be all like oh my god i was almost stabbing my eyes but then I found this church 😂😂😂

And now all the problems of my life disappeared
 
Aren

Aren

Student
Jun 15, 2026
112
Update: i followed the protocol, took 1 sn solution, after 2 min i vomitted like hell, like theres no big food things in my stomach all my intestine and vessels pushed upwards to my mouth, gotta say that vomitting was horrible, there would be feeling and taste of the sn which is very salty..after that began to swallow saliva .
Took 2nd sn solution, after 2 min i vomitted again but it's very little. Then after 3 min my stomach kept burning, that pain was so unbearable and i felt little anxious, I've called the ambulance service out of fear and couldn't cope with the pain, the ambulance guy said the ambulance is very very far away, i said no need for ambulance then. I prayed got to plss take me and i couldn't bear the pain, i thought to wake up my mom, but relaxed a bit and didn't tell her, after 5 min the pain reduced, not fully gone, i slept , thinking if this is the pain i have to go through then it's okay to bear this pain, i thought of why I'm doing this and stayed strong, then i tried to sleep and i slept and was shocked to know that i woke up after an hour and i don't have any symptoms like blue nails or something. But there's a discomfort in thr stomach, then i slept again, fee times in the night i would woke up and stomach feels wierd. I was shocked why the method didn't work for me, gotta say that the pain is there. Morning i had breakfast like usual and my stomach felt weird from like after breakfast.. at evening i drank 1 litre of soda hoping that my stomach could calm down , but I'm getting this sharp like pain in stomach.
I went to the doctor and told that I'm getting pain like this , i haven't told him about the sn, he gave me 3 type of tablets and 1 syrup.. if the pain continues ima go for scanning, after dinner my stomach feels okaish, due to the tablets I guess, also doctor told me to take liquid foods more .
Thank you for all your wishes ❤️..
If anyone know what happened to me, why i failed plss share your thoughts.. also what should i do about my stomach pain..
I wish you to rest and find peace. Sorry for you. You are very brave. Maybe go to hospital and explain it's maybe a food poisoning if you do not want to talk about SN but still with help from doctor.
 

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