Today is my ctb date

[Ghostly]

i am so sick and tired today i hope the heroin takes me and gives me bliss as i enter the abyss i love you all will upload more during the day as this is my last day might as well contribute the best online community

 

[lost_soul83]

i am so sick and tired today i hope the heroin takes me and gives me bliss as i enter the abyss i love you all will upload more during the day as this is my last day might as well contribute the best online community

I hope everything works out the way you want it to and you finally find peace.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

i am so sick and tired today i hope the heroin takes me and gives me bliss as i enter the abyss i love you all will upload more during the day as this is my last day might as well contribute the best online community

Hi Ghostly, I'm sorry you're feeling so desperate to leave...
Do you have a solid plan this time, ie have you researched how much H you need for a successful attempt?
I fear you're going about this half assed and next time will be the time you end up as a living vegetable :(
Have you sought some help for your mental health issues?

 

[Ghostly]

Hi Ghostly, I'm sorry you're feeling so desperate to leave...
Do you have a solid plan this time, ie have you researched how much H you need for a successful attempt?
I fear you're going about this half assed and next time will be the time you end up as a living vegetable :(
Have you sought some help for your metal health issues?

sought help since 6th grade seen countless therapists since then, i need about 90-100mg of H and my plan is to wait for my roommate to leave for work and then just fuck around for a bit enjoy my last couple hours then off myself this may not be my last day as i feel a little uneasy about it all but the 14th if shit keeps getting worse I'm defiantly going

 

[nora.]

Hey. Know that we will support you no matter what. If you intend to leave, we will say our goodbyes. But if you want to stay here, know that we are always here okay? Hugsss
Update me about your plan haha I don't wanna miss it

sought help since 6th grade seen countless therapists since then, i need about 90-100mg of H and my plan is to wait for my roommate to leave for work and then just fuck around for a bit enjoy my last couple hours then off myself this may not be my last day as i feel a little uneasy about it all but the 14th if shit keeps getting worse I'm defiantly going

 

[WornOutLife]

Oh dear, I'm so sad to read this. We've become such nice friends.

Anyway, you know I love you and I wish you the best! Hope you can find peace.

Hugs and love,

Matt

 

[Amumu]

I think 100 mg won't necessarily kill you...
100 mg H = 200 mg M if I remember well
Read the PPH again please, I don't want you to end up damaged.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

sought help since 6th grade seen countless therapists since then, i need about 90-100mg of H and my plan is to wait for my roommate to leave for work and then just fuck around for a bit enjoy my last couple hours then off myself this may not be my last day as i feel a little uneasy about it all but the 14th if shit keeps getting worse I'm defiantly going

Such a shame mental health services have let you down. Do you have a diagnosis at all?
Reading between the lines, (though I may be wrong here) I don't feel you really want to leave and that you're crying out for some help?

 

[muffin222]

Such a shame mental health services have let you down. Do you have a diagnosis at all?
Reading between the lines, (though I may be wrong here) I don't feel you really want to leave and that you're crying out for some help?

I agree with this. I could be wrong, but you sound uncertain about whether you truly want to go through with this. If that's the case, I hope you'll give yourself a bit more time to think things over and perhaps see if you have any other options you haven't explored yet? I'm sorry you're hurting

 

[Ghostly]

I agree with this. I could be wrong, but you sound uncertain about whether you truly want to go through with this. If that's the case, I hope you'll give yourself a bit more time to think things over and perhaps see if you have any other options you haven't explored yet? I'm sorry you're hurting

in all honesty i am kinda unsure

Such a shame mental health services have let you down. Do you have a diagnosis at all?
Reading between the lines, (though I may be wrong here) I don't feel you really want to leave and that you're crying out for some help?

diagnoses': Major depressive disorder, OCD, generalized anxiety disorder, schizoaffective

suspected diagnoses': borderline personality disorder, schizotypal PD, (STPD)

 

[x~Sophia~x]

in all honesty i am kinda unsure

diagnoses': Major depressive disorder, OCD, generalized anxiety disorder, schizoaffective

suspected diagnoses': borderline personality disorder, schizotypal PD, (STPD)

That's a lot to deal with and I'm not surprised you're struggling, especially as therapy isn't working for you.
Are you registered with CMHT at the moment?

 

[wordsonscreen]

Sending you so much love <3 Please know that this is YOUR choice. You can change your mind at any time and we would love to have you with us a bit longer :) We want the best for you- whatever you decide! On another note, a combo of many types of therapy + meds can be very helpful at times once a good regimen is found. This is an important choice and it would make sense to try alternatives first since this option will always exist :)

 

[x~Sophia~x]

Hi Ghostly, how's things?

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

Sending you hugs

 

[x~Sophia~x]

@Ghostly I can see you're online. Are you OK?

 

[Ghostly]

@Ghostly I can see you're online. Are you OK?

shit is getting bad.. i want to die to be honest

 

[x~Sophia~x]

shit is getting bad.. i want to die to be honest

What's happening, talk to me. Are you drunk, or have you been doing H? Or both?
@Ghostly
I don't think you do want to die, but I know you're struggling badly. You really do need to stop using heroin before you make everything worse for yourself. :((((

 

[wordsonscreen]

What's happening, talk to me. Are you drunk, or have you been doing H? Or both?
@Ghostly
I don't think you do want to die, but I know you're struggling badly. You really do need to stop using heroin before you make everything worse for yourself. :((((

I agree.. You can talk to us <3

 

[Ghostly]

both did some coke as well my boyfriend is yelling at me and my roommate is gone i think i might ctb

What's happening, talk to me. Are you drunk, or have you been doing H? Or both

 

[x~Sophia~x]

@Ghostly
please talk to either me or @sunbug

both did some coke as well my boyfriend is yelling at me and my roommate is gone i think i might ctb

"I think I might ctb" means you will be doing it because you're upset and drunk/stoned/high, so impulsive. This isn't the way.
Please sleep and talk to us tomorrow. I really worry about you, because I know you don't really want to die.

 

[Ghostly]

@Ghostly
please talk to either me or @sunbug

"I think I might ctb" means you will be doing it because you're upset and drunk/stoned/high, so impulsive. This isn't the way.
Please sleep and talk to us tomorrow. I really worry about you, because I know you don't really want to die.

Still here I got waay to drunk to actually ctb instead I just passed out on my bed crying I'm awake now..

 

[x~Sophia~x]

Still here I got waay to drunk to actually ctb instead I just passed out on my bed crying I'm awake now..

I'm glad to hear you're still here. Please send me a message if you'd like to talk about how you're feeling

 

[Cat5050]

Please don't kill yourself

 

[wordsonscreen]

Still here I got waay to drunk to actually ctb instead I just passed out on my bed crying I'm awake now..

Hey, I think there are ways you can get help and make your life situation such that you would want to live. Impulsive attempts tend to not go well and people tend to regret them. Please be careful and give this time. Substances can genuinely cloud our judgement and you deserve bettr <3 Sophia clearly cares about you, please connect with sophia. Please do reconsider and ask for help <3

 

[heraclitus]

Hi

i am so sick and tired today i hope the heroin takes me and gives me bliss as i enter the abyss i love you all will upload more during the day as this is my last day might as well contribute the best online community

Ghostly - I hope you find your bliss and peace. Safe travels.