Venting this is it until i die.

[elpurp]

i'm tired man.

applying for jobs as a recent graphic designer grad but nobody wants you bc ai took over. and you're black and apparently untalented.

wanting to date somebody but all of ur talking stages lose interest after a day/two days and you only meet one every couple of years. all of your dating apps have been dry for months and the people who want you live nowhere close to you. you haven't talked to your ex in months but you've heard she's moved on and has fucked many guys since you.

wanting to save money but u can't bc ur minimum wage job doesn't schedule you enough, if at all. but your mom keeps pestering you abt paying her back tuition knowing damn well you can't but she doesn't give a fuck. meanwhile, your fyp is always full of friends and peers traveling and dating.

u ran outta prozac so ur currently spiraling again after u said u wouldn't, so u resort to getting high and gooning but feeling bad bc not even the gooners wanna talk to you.

and you have to live because you've tried catching the bus b4 but you're too much of a coward to reach the destination. i fucking hate myself.

 

[CrawlingInMySkin]

It's okay, mate. One way or another, you'll be okay, my friend. Firearms are easy to disassociate from especially if you're good ad disassociation and play a lot of shooters, so that might be a method for you. And even if you don't ctb, happiness will reach you eventually. Keep going until there's a gun in your mouth, my friend. Love and peace