Venting This happens when you discard methods too fast

[narval]

Well well well. I'm idiot. Very much. Probably i'm alive because that. IDK how to feel, i still have to process it

When i registered, i was low, very low of money. So i discarded N after a little research. Too expensive, hard to acquire. Paired with that, i discarded automatically other methods. I didn't checked because well, chemicals or other stuff and so and so. I sticked to materials i had in home. Hanging or night-night despite the low reliability it seems to have and the fear they provokes in me this methods because that.

And now, the "fun thing" comes: As i got a job recently (expected the worst about it and, in long terms probably it will be), istarted to search about SN. I spent barely 5 minutes and seems even cheap, not only for my current economic capacity, I could have bought months ago.

Yes, i've to verify if the sellers are reliable, but there are in my country. Maybe i even can buy in the city where i live.

i'm alive because laziness.

Fuck

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that for many it can be a relief having the option of SN. Even know many people have succeeded with hanging, that method scares me and Night Night just sounds unreliable. I wish you the best.

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

I feel your frustration. My date has been postponed countless times through a combination of fear, obligation and guilt. And not to mention events that happen at the right place and at the right time. It was through pure serendipity that my illness went into remission and I aborted what was to be my very first attempt—only for it to flare up again at a later time. Only this year did my (health) problems tip me over the edge ever so slightly, and I got to acquiring the necessary materials. But lo and behold, I'm still here.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Selfishly, I'm happy you're still here. I still wish you the best in locating SN.
You are allowed to stick around even if you do aquire it.