Venting Thinking Out Loud

[skiski_what]

Does anyone else wonder, why is the universe like this? I'm not religious, all I want to know is what's actually out there.

I just don't get why we're even made to begin with. What greater purpose is there for our existence? It all feels so stupid. I've researched into this countless times from physics, pure mathematics, philosophical, and it just makes no sense. Why are our lives just a glitch in the universe that just so happened to be made under the right conditions. It could've been anything else. I could've been anyone else. It doesn't help that as much as we want to, there's so much stuff missing in the smallest and biggest order that we can't even fathom. Like, I'm literally at a loss for my own life when it comes to living and coming up with something that would've been a taller order outside of it. I highly doubt there's any higher being evaluating us, but I also can't take an approach of where this life is meant to be simply because it is.

Like, it sounds so fucking stupid. I really wish there was just a get out for free button, but I'm stumped. With all that being said, my thoughts go further into what comes after death. Like where am I supposed to go? Will I just wake up in a new life? Am I just gonna float in space without the capacity to think and only witness? Is there a larger dimension we're suspended in? Does our consciousness come from something else entirely? Are we just the universe trying to experience itself?

This life is so miserable but there's so many pretty and cool things in space I wish I'd seen instead. The only thing bugging me is if I'd die, there's a possibility that I'd never get these answers, but on the contrary, all my questions might be solved.

I'd love to hear everyone's own interpretation of this and what they think.

Sidenote: I hope everyone has a good/better day.

 

[Kanau_Nano]

When i was on a bunch of acid once I came to the conclusion everything in the universe is a part of God. And the reason God made everything is because there is an intense feeling balance of positive and negative energy and it got too much for God to deal with so it split itself into everything with no memory of it to carry the burden of the energy easier and to experience new things. When we die we go back to being a part of God. Some people carry the negative energy more than the positive sadly. In the end everyone is everything i thought. It scared me fr lol

Sounds crazy cause I was really high. On that trip I was convinced this was 100% true and felt it deeply lol

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I don't think our existence is necessarily a rare occurrence of pure chance. there is so much more to this universe and existence than we can currently comprehend. Every time a new big discovery is made in physics, it changes the course of our understanding of absolutely everything. To be honest, we as a species will definitely go extinct before we even manage to come close to the answer of why we or anything even exists.