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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,156
It is sad to actually say goodbye to certain things I loved and will never do again…
1. Concerts (Radiohead)
2. Thunderstorms and lightning
3. Being in love
4. Discovering a new favorite song
5. Sharing joy
6. Embrace of my beautiful ex girlfriend
7. Meeting a new fascinating person
8. France and Italy
9. Playing music with people
10. Dinner parties
 
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Eternal Oblivion

Student
Nov 23, 2021
195
I remember sometimes "scaning" my body feet to head and thinking "I love being healthy". I won't feel that again.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,156
I remember sometimes "scaning" my body feet to head and thinking "I love being healthy". I won't feel that again.
Feeling safe … Feeling attractive… Feeling productive…
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,703
Deep blue skies and bitter cold

Wild violent winds

Hot crusty rolls with melting butter
 
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down for the count

Mage
Jun 3, 2021
585
The feeling of achievement. The joy of reading. Watching YouTube. Eating food delivered to me. Playing tennis.
 
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Dreamlike Reality

Dreamlike Reality

Bedhead 💤
Nov 29, 2021
74
Feeling connected to other people at all . . .
The feeling of the water at the beach and the sun in summer . . .
Any sort of food in general, really . . .
Making art together with friends, we always fight now . . .
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,703
The joy of discovering another country a different language and a fascinating culture all through making friends and connecting with people
 
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sadnurse

Student
Nov 2, 2021
118
Joy, happiness, comfort, traveling, being a nurse, helping people, swimming in the ocean, driving my car, concerts, laughing, feeling comfortable in my own skin, my health
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,703
Days when the world sings the sky pulsates and joy floods my veins
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
2,472
Sex, good food
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,703
Love this thread. Even though it's breaking my heart...
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
2,472
It's weird when you realize it's all over and you're not going back to the way it was…
Well. Im in position now where it is impossible to find sex. So it is over pretty much for me in that regards. At 36 y.o. Such shame
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,156
Love this thread. Even though it's breaking my heart...
I know… It's so sad to know that the world is full of so many amazing experiences and we can't have them ever again…
Skiing the alps, surfing, the smell of your lover
 
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HiImPaul

HiImPaul

Student
Nov 5, 2021
125
Pretty much anything I use to do for fun. Video games, tv, spending time with my (ex) gf. Nothing makes me happy anymore.
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,703
I know… It's so sad to know that the world is full of so many amazing experiences and we can't have them ever again…
Skiing the alps, surfing, the smell of your lover
I still have a fierce will to devour new experiences. If only things were different. But they never will be.
 
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RedPanda

RedPanda

One day we shall be free from this mortal coil.
Jul 16, 2019
237
Eating fried chicken.
 
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Romeo1984

Romeo must die
Oct 6, 2021
59
Love. To love and to be loved. Wake up and make breakfast surprise for my love. Going out on weekends and spending the whole day with her, no matter where. Feel the heat of her body. Kissing and feeling the sweetness of her lips. Admire her smile. Cuddling while she sleeps in my lap. Make plans together, for the next weekend, month, year and life. Sending messages while she works saying how much I love her and inviting her to lunch together at a restaurant we've never been to. Participate in her achievements, even if only as an admired spectator. Each achievement my or hers celebrating together. Knowing that even in a crowd, I had someone who knew me, knew my faults and strengths, and yet loved me and made me better. Make love on the beach while the storm approaches. Stay with her, whatever the place or the situation. Everything had a purpose: her.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,156
Love. To love and to be loved. Wake up and make breakfast surprise for my love. Going out on weekends and spending the whole day with her, no matter where. Feel the heat of her body. Kissing and feeling the sweetness of her lips. Admire her smile. Cuddling while she sleeps in my lap. Make plans together, for the next weekend, month, year and life. Sending messages while she works saying how much I love her and inviting her to lunch together at a restaurant we've never been to. Participate in her achievements, even if only as an admired spectator. Each achievement my or hers celebrating together. Knowing that even in a crowd, I had someone who knew me, knew my faults and strengths, and yet loved me and made me better. Make love on the beach while the storm approaches. Stay with her, whatever the place or the situation. Everything had a purpose: her.
I remember that
 
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My_name_is_Luka

Specialist
Apr 28, 2020
328
I have had to say goodbye to many things, due to deterioration of my health:
- sun
- some hours in the snow
- physical exercise
- swimming in a lake
- an evening at the bar
- holidays and travels
- job hunting
- trying to start a relationship
- several foods (sweets, chocolate, ...)

I already feel enough dead with all these deprivations..
 
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sadnurse

Student
Nov 2, 2021
118
I have had to say goodbye to many things, due to deterioration of my health:
- sun
- some hours in the snow
- physical exercise
- an evening at the bar
- holidays and travels
- job hunting
- trying to start a relationship
- several foods (sweets, chocolate, ...)

I already feel enough dead with all these deprivations..
I concur with already feeling dead due to my limitations 😥😥😥
 
ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,560
Watching sports, used to love it, can barely stand it anymore.
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,703
Watching sports, used to love it, can barely stand it anymore.
Yeah. I can barely stand most of the things I used to love.
 
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