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Circles

Visionary
Sep 3, 2018
2,297
Apologies for making another pointless post of mine again today, I got a lot on my mind and need to let the steam out so to speak. I just don't know how to navigate the mental gymnastics of dealing with a dysfunctional family. It's that's simple yet just so fucking hard. Like I constantly compare myself and wonder how dysfunctional are most families? Is my family one of the worst? At this point I get seriously embarrassed and ashamed that I am part of something I can't control. You can't have the ability to choose the family you are born with. All I want is a peaceful drama free life but that's too much to ask for. They say blood may be thicker than water, but that what happens when that blood is poison? I feel an indescribable nausea almost existential that this is just how things are and you can't get any explanation as to why things are the way they are.
 
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Hunterer

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May 13, 2024
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I understand you, I know what you are going through. Unfortunately, I was also born into a dysfunctional family, full of problems in many aspects. I personally am tired of the family environment in which I am forced to live every day. It is not a truly healthy environment and is full of instability, and since I do not have the money to leave and move, I am forced to deal with this practically every day. But fortunately, i will ctb soon...
 
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Circles

Visionary
Sep 3, 2018
2,297
Was just thinking how my family crest or motto would be 'Always making something out of nothing'. Laughable if not so senseless. But I guess that's thing about making any sense in a senseless world is that you have no control other than your own actions and reactions, but even that feels somewhat impossible at times.
 
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Anon7b8

Experienced
Aug 21, 2023
265
Can't say i understand your situation, but I'm also in a similar state. Either we strap up for the long ride, find a way to leave, or end things.
 
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