I made a post a couple of days ago about partial hanging. I tried it and was so excited to see that I was able to pass out. My intent was to wait until Monday morning to ctb by full suspension as this past week absolutely destroyed me and confirmed my decision to ctb.
That same night on Thursday, I got up in the middle of the night to try partial hanging again. This time, I got caught. I was out cold when I awoke to my sibling shaking me. I had hung myself on the door and made a lot of noise apparently.
I was taken to the hospital by the police and am now committed for a minimum of 72 hours. I had to call into work. My whole family knows and they've all been super supportive, but I just know that it'll subtly change how they see me. Now my parents and everyone is aware that I'm suicidal and keeps giving me hope and encouragement. I feel a little better but my issues are deep Rooted and irreversible.
Lesson learned... Don't do partial unless you completely alone. If I hadn't fooled around I'd be on my way to dying on Monday morning. Now I'm stuck in a psych ward, might lose my job and have to deal with the guilt of letting all my family down if I eventually ctb.
That same night on Thursday, I got up in the middle of the night to try partial hanging again. This time, I got caught. I was out cold when I awoke to my sibling shaking me. I had hung myself on the door and made a lot of noise apparently.
I was taken to the hospital by the police and am now committed for a minimum of 72 hours. I had to call into work. My whole family knows and they've all been super supportive, but I just know that it'll subtly change how they see me. Now my parents and everyone is aware that I'm suicidal and keeps giving me hope and encouragement. I feel a little better but my issues are deep Rooted and irreversible.
Lesson learned... Don't do partial unless you completely alone. If I hadn't fooled around I'd be on my way to dying on Monday morning. Now I'm stuck in a psych ward, might lose my job and have to deal with the guilt of letting all my family down if I eventually ctb.
