The Will to Die vs Survival Instinct

[ixkitty]

I've been fighting the instinct with the will to die. I'm trying to figure out how to bypass that survival instinct. Any tips would be appreciated!

 

[FuneralCry]

I think if I knew how to overcome the SI, I would already be gone. I do believe that in my case, I will only be able to ctb when I get desperate and the pain of living gets to be unbearable. The survival instinct is frustrating, it is determined to keep us suffering. I wish you the best.

 

[ixkitty]

I think if I knew how to overcome the SI, I would already be gone. I do believe that in my case, I will only be able to ctb when I get desperate and the pain of living gets to be unbearable. The survival instinct is frustrating, it is determined to keep us suffering. I wish you the best.

I feel the same way ! It works my last nerve! Good luck to you too

 

[xLosthopex]

The million dollar question…
If you find the answer please let me know

 

[ixkitty]

The million dollar question…
If you find the answer please let me know

LOL I will !

 

[Crazy4u]

I like to remind myself that death will happen sooner or later. If I choose death by ctb, I am in control.

I can't grow up old, live alone, have poor health,...etc. I feel like a burden NOW despite working, studying and paying my bills and taxes. The feeling will get worse over time.

 

[ixkitty]

I like to remind myself that death will happen sooner or later. If I choose death by ctb, I am in control.

I can't grow up old, live alone, have poor health,...etc. I feel like a burden NOW despite working, studying and paying my bills and taxes. The feeling will get worse over time.

I feel that feeling. It's a whole mess to deal with

 

[TheStandard]

This is my biggest issue. I literally have everything in my bed next to me, exit bag, nitrogen tank, and everything good. I tried the other day, and I just started feeling tingly, and pulled the hood off super quick. I think I just need to be MUCH more tired and/or drunk to do this. I'm just tired of it all, and just want it over with.

 

[SpaceCadet]

I have been really close to doing it once when i was pretty drunk, but i wouldn't recommend it, it's to the best of your interest to be sober, so you can make a rational decision. When you are at the rock bottom things get pretty dark, hopelessness hijack our brains, making the SI lower substantially too. In my opinion It all comes down to the individual breaking point, where there's no other option but to do it.

 

[Al Cappella]

I don't even know if there are any studies around this—because it's a fascinating topic. Like anything else, I think there's a genetic component to whether someone will or won't suicide. That's where the ability to overcome is rooted. That means, to a certain extent, it's out of ppl's hands. That's my guess anyway…

 

[Sea Turtle]

I don't know if I can speak to this really, as I haven't had a (satisfactory) method at my hands or attempt before, though, that will (hopefully) change in two weeks. I think for me, it's become a mostly rational decision which will hopefully lead to the SI being less apparent when the time comes. I feel like if it's purely impulsive and emotional, SI will kick in just as hard as the feelings do.

 

[deletednumber]

SI is the worst bitch i had to deal with

 

[TheStandard]

I have been really close to doing it once when i was pretty drunk, but i wouldn't recommend it, it's to the best of your interest to be sober, so you can make a rational decision. When you are at the rock bottom things get pretty dark, hopelessness hijack our brains, making the SI lower substantially too. In my opinion It all comes down to the individual breaking point, where there's no other option but to do it.

I'm not a drinker. I had a beer the other day, and a couple bottles of wine over the last week, and they've been in my house for almost a year. I'm more of a cannabis smoker than anything. It's more so for the anxiety and to hopefully taper down the SI overall. I did find 3/5ths of a Xanax though that I got for my ex when we were going on a vacation due to her anxiety, that may also help here.

 

[WonderingSoul]

I don't have any hints, but I remember one time my problems outweighed my solutions, so I became so desperate that hanging almost worked for me. I chocked and nearly suffocated. My set up wasn't that good so I was able to recover. Desperation almost always works for me.

 

[thedaywillcome]

The million dollar question…
If you find the answer please let me know

The answer is: extreme emotional pain/stress

 

[Eternal Oblivion]

The answer is: extreme emotional pain/stress

That person has done it so I guess the answer was found.

 

[Freedomindeath4me]

There is simply no universal answer to this. Psyching yourself into it will look different to every person.

In the past attempts I've had it was very hard. I backed out of some of them when I stuck my toe in the water. The more misery I've endured the more I have been brazen in my suicide attempts.

 

[Checkmate64]

I think the only way I will be able to cbt is by acting on impulse without over thinking it, that's when SI takes over and i get to anxious.
I think i'm getting close to the point i cbt though…

 

[Imperia]

At the moment of ctb: intentionally dissociating from your emotions.

In the weeks before, when you so called 'made up your mind': I have no idea. Ugh, I hate this daily battle between SI and will to die.