Venting The fact that I don't matter and I'm worthless disturbs me

[TheHatedOne]

What did I do to have to be the black sheep of everything? Why can't I be like everyone else? Everyone else seems to be good at at least one thing and their suffering matters. Then there's me who's the problem. This hurts me a lot, really a lot that I can't put it in words. I don't know how to cope. I don't think that I really can cope with this. People acting to me like I'm the dumbest person that ever existed, well I know I am, but they could make it a little less obvious at least. I wish that I was good in at least 1 thing and that my suffering mattered. Wish, yeah. It's always wish or hope.

Meanwhile I'm preparing for another loss that will happen soon. I need those comforting words again from my dear friend, but I'm all alone and cold. I'm going to drink.

 

[Darkover]

i think you'll find there are millions out there dealing with the same kind of problems
struggling with studying not being able to keep up failing behind it's a lot pressure
life just depressing has shit having little money having to work for a inadequate amount of money.

 

[FuneralCry]

Nobody matters really. Eventually we will all die, our lives do not mean anything. For me the only positive thing is that the suffering will end eventually, consciousness is torture. I understand it is hard to cope when you are in a lot of pain, nobody should have to suffer like that. I wish you the best.

 

[quakociaptockh2]

This is my biggest pain, also.