lwovely
cat lover
- Oct 13, 2024
- 63
I genuinely feel so lost right now, my suicide date is coming really soon and I have tests coming that I don't have the motivation to study for. I have gifts I have to plan for my boyfriend cause his bday is coming up and supplies I have to get to CTB.
All of this is so overwhelming, I don't know how to break it to him that I won't be here any longer. It broke my heart when he told me how much he prioritizes a happy and healthy relationship because I know I wouldn't be able to give that to him. I sometimes wished we didn't date because I don't want to hurt him like this. Living is super hard for me and I wish I could take this pain away.
I hope that he finds someone he's looking for when I die and doesn't worry about me. My depression is getting worse and that's not something I'm willing to put him through.
All of this is so overwhelming, I don't know how to break it to him that I won't be here any longer. It broke my heart when he told me how much he prioritizes a happy and healthy relationship because I know I wouldn't be able to give that to him. I sometimes wished we didn't date because I don't want to hurt him like this. Living is super hard for me and I wish I could take this pain away.
I hope that he finds someone he's looking for when I die and doesn't worry about me. My depression is getting worse and that's not something I'm willing to put him through.
