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ab2south

ab2south

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May 7, 2020
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Ive been stuck in a mental hospital for 6 months and might be going to a state hospital. Were allowed to go on walks twice a day with a staff member, which is the only conceivable way of ctb; to run away. I just want to rest in peace
 
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Walilamdzi

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Mar 21, 2019
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That sucks big time.
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
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6 months?! Did you try to convince them you got better?
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
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They took away my phone for 5 months because i said a bunch of suicidal shit will manic.
I see.. but still... It's a long time to be on suicide watch.
 
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SipSop

SipSop

Arcanist
May 7, 2020
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They took away my phone for 5 months because i said a bunch of suicidal shit will manic.
They did not let me have a phone inside while I was there but they let me have my Kindle. I got lucky. But even reading could not cure my restlessness.
I don't know how you survived so long there.
I hope you can have your way in the end.
 
mpnf

mpnf

Mental anguish..no more please.
Oct 3, 2019
190
What's your age? Can't you have visits from parents or a friend?
How is your day to day?

It must feel terrible depending on the conditions you are being kept. But 6 months it's too much anyways.
 
ab2south

ab2south

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May 7, 2020
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What's your age? Can't you have visits from parents or a friend?
How is your day to day?

It must feel terrible depending on the conditions you are being kept. But 6 months it's too much anyways.
No visitors due to corona. I just got my phone back and im desperate to ctb.
 
mpnf

mpnf

Mental anguish..no more please.
Oct 3, 2019
190
No visitors due to corona. I just got my phone back and im desperate to ctb.
I'm sorry I can't help you, but can't you contact your family somehow so they can get you out? I don't think is sane for anybody to stay kn that environment for that long.

Can't you just pretend you are not suicidal anymore and show this to your psychiatrist?
They can't have you like that forever when you are in a better state of mind.
 
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ab2south

ab2south

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May 7, 2020
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I'm sorry I can't help you, but can't you contact your family somehow so they can get you out? I don't think is sane for anybody to stay kn that environment for that long.

Can't you just pretend you are not suicidal anymore and show this to your psychiatrist?
They can't have you like that forever when you are in a better state of mind.
I just got my phone back so im on the right path
 
purplesmoothie

purplesmoothie

Experienced
Sep 13, 2018
228
I'm in a facility too sucks big time
 
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Soulless_Angel

Soulless_Angel

existence is futile
Jul 10, 2019
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Just seen this thread now its been brought to the front page, can I ask what's brought you here?