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Bukki1974

Member
Apr 24, 2026
11
Hi,
my soulmate of 20 years passed away 6 month ago. We always knew we'd be together; we just thought it would happen when we were old and gray. I'm physically and mentally healthy, but I no longer have any prospects in this life. I've had everything I ever wanted; I've loved so much and been loved in return. I never believed something like this was possible, and I'm incredibly grateful because I know how many people here on earth never get to experience it. We were both able to experience what it means when two souls connect and truly see one another. Despite our childhood experiences, we were able to realize that we are worthy and that we are loved without having to do anything to earn it. I know that I received the greatest gift. He passed away in my arms. Unfortunately, at my age, it's not so easy to obtain assisted dying in Germany and Switzerland. I can't imagine shooting or hanging myself, and I've been looking for a peaceful method for the past 6 months to cross over. I have no strength left, and I don't see any point in going on in this world that is so terrible to me. Is there anyone else going through the same thing? I would really appreciate.

All the best for all of you
 
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Aren

Student
Jun 15, 2026
139
Hi,
my soulmate of 20 years passed away 6 month ago. We always knew we'd be together; we just thought it would happen when we were old and gray. I'm physically and mentally healthy, but I no longer have any prospects in this life. I've had everything I ever wanted; I've loved so much and been loved in return. I never believed something like this was possible, and I'm incredibly grateful because I know how many people here on earth never get to experience it. We were both able to experience what it means when two souls connect and truly see one another. Despite our childhood experiences, we were able to realize that we are worthy and that we are loved without having to do anything to earn it. I know that I received the greatest gift. He passed away in my arms. Unfortunately, at my age, it's not so easy to obtain assisted dying in Germany and Switzerland. I can't imagine shooting or hanging myself, and I've been looking for a peaceful method for the past 6 months to cross over. I have no strength left, and I don't see any point in going on in this world that is so terrible to me. Is there anyone else going through the same thing? I would really appreciate.

All the best for all of you
Hello, i am truly sorry for both of you. I am in the "same" situation yes. After 10 years with my soulmate the love of my life, she died and left.

I can relate all of your post. I do not see any meaning to continue life without her. I tried to die since she left the 2nd June 2026 5pm. It's traumatic and it let me alone in a world where i can't belong anymore.
I have not so much to write about it, just this loss is an earthquake for me. I feel nothing anymore other than sadness and pain.

I think about death everytime. I hope you will find peace
 
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Bukki1974

Member
Apr 24, 2026
11
Hello, i am truly sorry for both of you. I am in the "same" situation yes. After 10 years with my soulmate the love of my life, she died and left.

I can relate all of your post. I do not see any meaning to continue life without her. I tried to die since she left the 2nd June 2026 5pm. It's traumatic and it let me alone in a world where i can't belong anymore.
I have not so much to write about it, just this loss is an earthquake for me. I feel nothing anymore other than sadness and pain.

I think about death everytime. I hope you will find peace
Nothing is the same. It feels like he is alive and I'm the one who is dead. I hope you find your way to her soon.
 
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chillino

Student
Jan 30, 2026
127
Maybe some grief counselling might help you? I am really sorry for your loss
 

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