Venting sometimes i wish I had aspirations

[ecmnesia]

that's all i guess.

sometimes i wish I had dreams, something to strive for, something that made me crave the future. something that made me less empty. that i had something i could hold on to. i envy those that are different than me, those that posses what i lack.

staying only for the sake of others is not enough.

i'm sorry for spamming the forum, but i don't really have anyone to talk or anywhere else to be, so yeah. thanks.

 

[OopsIdidntwanttodie]

that's all i guess.

sometimes i wish I had dreams, something to strive for, something that made me crave the future. something that made me less empty. that i had something i could hold on to. i envy those that are different than me, those that posses what i lack.

staying only for the sake of others is not enough.

i'm sorry for spamming the forum, but i don't really have anyone to talk or anywhere else to be, so yeah. thanks.

I remember when I was happier and I saw hope through the mess that the world is. Those were better times...I never knew i'd get so consumed in the end. I'm sorry that things have become so difficult for you ecmnesia. We hear you, and If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to pm me:) *hug*

 

[Deleted member 23374]

i feel most of that except for the cello and poetry, they're good temporary measures.

 

[demuic]

I used to have dreams. Then I woke up.

 

[Dark Spring]

I'm very sorry that you feel this way, if you need to talk, about anything, you can send me a message. Many of us are looking for something or someone to fight for, the insertion of the future and not knowing what to do is very sad, we feel empty and without purpose, I accompany you in your thoughts. I hope that somehow everything will improve for you. Hugs

 

[CoalmineCanary]

staying only for the sake of others is not enough.

Trying for others just makes me feel so dishonest. The internal conflict is interfering with my plans to exit. I hate that I feel resentful of everyone including myself because I feel like I'm trapped. The truth is too difficult for them to face so thanks for letting me vent. It helps me cope with the fraud that's my life.