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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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It's been discussed here before, but I can't find a thread. Some people are just better than others.

I say this as someone on the low end. I realize it now. I was at an event this weekend with thousands of people and if you look around, you can tell some are just different. Well put together. Confident. Happy.

I'm just not in that world. I never will be. Many won't be. It sucks too because I'm considered to be privileged because of my gender and race. But it's absurd. I'm garbage. I can see so many people from so many backgrounds that are just better than me.

I've made poor life choices and now I'm in the spot. There are people that wouldn't be in this spot in a million years.

Why? Why so much variety in humanity? Variety is not bad but why are some people are just so different? I have personality disorders and some form of autism and I've had physical issues. Why?

Maybe this is more religious or existential, but feeling this way and being this way drive me to wanting to die. Drive me to suicide. I can't believe I'm the only one.
 
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tonicer

tonicer

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Nov 13, 2025
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I am, according to some people, also privileged because of my white skin and because i am a man. I never experienced any kind of privilege.

I don't get a job because in most job offers i read it is the exact opposite of a privilege to be white/native or male. They prefer women or people with disabilities or migrants over native applicants like me and they openly say it. I think it's racist towards the natives and the main reason why right wing parties.

I harbor no hate towards people with a different skin color or heritage because it's not their choice but i hate people/companies who don't want to hire me because of my skin color or heritage. I deserve the same rights as the foreigners.

I think i would not be suicidal if i had a job and thus a purpose to live.

The only reason i haven't killed myself already is because my parents are still alive.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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I think i would not be suicidal if i had a job and thus a purpose to live.
This is me and it's a lot of people and it's gonna be a lot more people soon

You need a purpose.

Some people are just better and they're going to survive this and people like us won't.
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
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Looking at this world with all the wars, AI and Robots taking over, I'm starting to believe that creating humans are God's greatest mistake.
 

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