Some more venting

[jawdropped123]

I was suicidal for the first time when i turned 17. I stopped going to church at that age and i felt such a relieve and i felt free. I had no worries. I didnt even care about hell anymore. Usually when people tell these types of stories its a testimomy about how they met god. Well this was my testimony of how i freed myself from god.

 

[lili]

I grew up in a very strict catholic environment. And found myself to be freed from the concept of God. That being said, I feel my source of existentialism began when I lost faith in my religion and a higher being. I guess the idea of the purpose of life is to have faith in a better afterlife, and to know someone loves you unconditionally (God,Virgin,Jesus)

I feel super free ever since I left my religion at 18 and 19, and will never in my life imagine I go back to that, or believing. But definitely hard to find purpose after breaking away from such a strong influence as religion. My suicidal thoughts happened after the awareness of all the trauma. Partly inflicted by the idea of religion. A consequence of breaking free is awareness of the abuse.