Help Should I try steroids?

[argonian_maid]

I've had an early puberty from sexual abuse and my gonads didn't develop properly. I was offered testosterone treatments but they'd raise me to the bare minimum for a guy my age. I'm thinking about trying steroids that I can get online and doing blood tests regularly. Ideally getting to the higher range of average testosterone. I'd like to have more energy and put on muscle mass, hoping that the extra energy will help me workout.

Worth a shot? I'm not really worried about long term damage. Even if I stop being suicidal I don't want to live past 60. I don't plan on being able to retire financially or raise a family. I also plan on trying harder steroids like tren if testosterone works well.

Just seems like it won't really fix anything and just prolong the time until I ctb. And I'm wanting to leave sooner rather than later, just need to find a good home for my cat.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

If you have low T, that can cause serious depression along with other health issues. I would start with TRT at a high dose and see how you feel and how high your levels get. You may be surprised that it could be higher than the bare minimum. I know many older muscular men on TRT and their levels get high. Do steroids as a last resort.

 

[instormdrains]

Id just do what it takes to be average with doctors overlooking it. My friend started balding after taking steroids and they can give you Acne. Im also no expert but maybe cus you have low test shooting to such a high level can be detrimental compared to average to high. There's probably better communities to ask about this considering this is a suicide form, try some fitness forums instead.

 

[miyabi]

I've had an early puberty from sexual abuse and my gonads didn't develop properly. I was offered testosterone treatments but they'd raise me to the bare minimum for a guy my age. I'm thinking about trying steroids that I can get online and doing blood tests regularly. Ideally getting to the higher range of average testosterone. I'd like to have more energy and put on muscle mass, hoping that the extra energy will help me workout.

Worth a shot? I'm not really worried about long term damage. Even if I stop being suicidal I don't want to live past 60. I don't plan on being able to retire financially or raise a family. I also plan on trying harder steroids like tren if testosterone works well.

Just seems like it won't really fix anything and just prolong the time until I ctb. And I'm wanting to leave sooner rather than later, just need to find a good home for my cat.

Country dependent but even in places that aren't super pro-steroid you can find clinics that are more liberal with doses. I've been on TRT (doctor prescribed) most of my adult life because of hypogonadism, which may or may not have been induced by steroid use as a teenager.

My levels are no lower than 1000ng/dl even in a trough. I still feel the same as I did when I was a kid, and even with test levels in the tens of thousands I didn't feel any different. Still, if there is a genuine medical need for it (which it sounds like there is in your case) then it's recommended. I started treatment because without it I was incredibly weak and underweight. Mentally I'm the same as I was before, just bigger and stronger.

Be careful with tren, as mentally stable individuals using report really rapidly deteriorating mental health. I don't think that's ideal for anyone on this forum.