Water-Lily
Enlightened
- Dec 26, 2020
- 1,203
Breadcrumbs
So...why don't I just come forward?
I could just say who they are and just try
Maybe one person in my friend group will support me and value me
Maybe one person will see through "him" and validate me
But, what if they turn on me?
What if they victim blame me?
And regardless, I cannot stop them from being his friend
At the end of the day, this reminds me of an old trauma
Where when I came out about my abuser, everyone left me
I was all alone
The only way I can cope with such lonliness
Is the kill myself
But I will at least leave behind breadcrumbs
Little pieces of the truth
So when I die people will have to piece together the puzzle
Because if I do it they won't care
Only when I am gone...will they care
So...why don't I just come forward?
I could just say who they are and just try
Maybe one person in my friend group will support me and value me
Maybe one person will see through "him" and validate me
But, what if they turn on me?
What if they victim blame me?
And regardless, I cannot stop them from being his friend
At the end of the day, this reminds me of an old trauma
Where when I came out about my abuser, everyone left me
I was all alone
The only way I can cope with such lonliness
Is the kill myself
But I will at least leave behind breadcrumbs
Little pieces of the truth
So when I die people will have to piece together the puzzle
Because if I do it they won't care
Only when I am gone...will they care
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