I dont know what to do anymore :(

[angelhopes]

Hello guys, these past two months has been hitting me hard lately and I genuinely don't know what to do. My bestfriend and my bf just both left me in the same week and I am completely devastated. I told other people about it and they said that I didn't do anything wrong and I shouldn't have apologize even though I did.

I tried clinging into religion and god actually gave me a sign to move forward but how do I move forward when I can't even fight anymore? The future seems so blurry and I feel like im just gonna be stuck feeling like this forever. I genuinely have no one who can understand me and this is my cry for help. I tried to fight and not relapse on this website but I am back again.

How can people do this to someone who wants nothing but love and care for them? It's so unfair and it feels like im the only one suffering while theyre having a good time. Maybe I am the problem? I wonder if I was gone then everyone would even care to remind me.

Im sorry for the rant guys I just feel so lonely and I don't know what to do anymore :( I really want to be better and I was feeling hopeful but now im afraid that I am spiraling back to being hopeless. Any type of encouragement and reassurance would help im sorry if it seems like im begging but I actually feel so lost.

 

[8hsjyd]

I'm really sorry to hear of your circumstances; I hope things get better soon. Life can often be unfair and cruel-- loneliness especially is painful. While I don't know the circumstances, at the very least you seem to be a kind person who tried to do their best. I think the most individuals can do in cases such as these is reflect on what happened, even if they're not at fault themselves (and especially if they do share some blame (though it seems that that's not the case here)). While feeling upset is normal and while healing takes time, so long as we put forth an effort, we're at least able to continue on as people, meet new friends, and hopefully move forward, even if it's with tinges of the past following us. Though people can and do leave, we at least have our experience with them to cherish and learn from.

 

[angelhopes]

I'm really sorry to hear of your circumstances; I hope things get better soon. Life can often be unfair and cruel-- loneliness especially is painful. While I don't know the circumstances, at the very least, you seem to be a kind person who tried to do their best. I think the most individuals can do in cases such as these is reflect on what happened, even if they're not at fault themselves (and especially if they do share some blame (though it seems that that's not the case here)). While feeling upset is normal and while healing takes time, so long as we put forth an effort, we're at least able to continue on as people, meet new friends, and hopefully move forward, even if it's with tinges of the past following us. While people can and do leave, we at least have our experience with them to cherish and learn from.

Thank you, Ive been reflecting and it was going well until my brain would fill me these delusions to the point that i would forget what i was reflecting on. My brain would also make me feel and want to seek comfort on those people who hurt me and I dont know why. Im honestly been so mentally and physically exhausted that I dont know how to move forward and ill be stuck like this forever

 

[8hsjyd]

Thank you, Ive been reflecting and it was going well until my brain would fill me these delusions to the point that i would forget what i was reflecting on. My brain would also make me feel and want to seek comfort on those people who hurt me and I dont know why. Im honestly been so mentally and physically exhausted that I dont know how to move forward and ill be stuck like this forever

I think the passage of time, as simple as it is, can help with these things as well considering that it seems you're already doing your best to reflect on your time with them. Getting good rest is important too. I truly wish you the best.