SaSu: Suicide Notes and Final Decisions

[Dür Ktulhu]

You know, there is more life on this forum than anywhere else. SaSu is a source where life is stripped down to its essence. Every confession... every word is incredibly valuable. I feel so much- someone's compassion, someone's love, someone's despair, an understanding of another's pain, hard-won admissions, the closeness of death-what do I feel amidst all this? Life...
That is what I feel in this ocean of sincerity. Life. Unvarnished, unceremonious, at times unbearable -but real. And within this naked truth lies its highest value. Thank you to everyone who shares it here.

 

[Dür Ktulhu]

What I admire most about the members of SaSu is the way you approach every topic with respect and without judgment. I have -and some of you here have seen them - statements and posts that were written in fits of megalomania. It wasn't just cynicism or narcissism, but also arrogance- I realize that now. And you know, I want to apologize for it. I know I'm prone to such things, but now, standing before the members of SaSu, seeing the endless understanding and lack of judgment that every member here shows - I feel ashamed of my arrogant outbursts and remarks.

 

[Kamaainakupua]

What I admire most about the members of SaSu is the way you approach every topic with respect and without judgment. I have -and some of you here have seen them - statements and posts that were written in fits of megalomania. It wasn't just cynicism or narcissism, but also arrogance- I realize that now. And you know, I want to apologize for it. I know I'm prone to such things, but now, standing before the members of SaSu, seeing the endless understanding and lack of judgment that every member here shows - I feel ashamed of my arrogant outbursts and remarks.

Someone the other day helped me reach a point of self-awareness. I have for years told people who hurt me then apologised, "Don't be sorry, be different".
I didn't understand that I was showing the same intolerant inflexibility that I myself hated and rebuked.
My friend uses the idea, "Don't be sorry, be better" internally. The only change we can usually make is within ourselves, though the ripples may extend beyond our understanding. The old story about, don't talk to me about the splinter in my eye when you have a plank in yours, fits well here.
I'm very happy that you have had these insights, but remember that you are human, and treat yourself with the love you would show someone with whom you were infatuated.
You may be guilty, but you don't have to die of shame.