Reflections on how to do it

[LostHope556]

Originally I wanted to blow my head off with my grandpa's .38 special. Then I was going to use my Sig P226, then a 20 gauge shotgun - then a 12 gauge.

All of these are too damn violent. I want a peaceful death. I love myself enough now to give myself an easy out.

I want candles and peaceful music. Benzos to put me to sleep and a chemical cocktail to get the job done.

I used to want to load up an ar-15 and unleash hell on people 10 years ago. That was just anger at the world, and NO, FBI, I'm not in that state anymore.

I don't know what the fuck I'm even writing this bullshit for. Just feels good to share I guess. Love you all.

cheers.

 

[DivineSpark]

I want my face to be intact. If I would have access to firearms, I would shoot myself into heart. Yeah, painful death with lots of bleeding.

 

[LostHope556]

I want my face to be intact. If I would have access to firearms, I would shoot myself into heart. Yeah, painful death with lots of bleeding.

Totally get that. Yeah, if I were to use a firearm, I would use a shotgun (because of the sufficient power), and go for the brainstem), it might fuck up the face, but at least guaranteed death.

Lil wayne shot himself in the heart, he survived.

Humans, we're terribly easy to kill when we want to live, and yet incredibly hard to end when we want to die, aren't we?