Discussion Received my first SN shipment in the mail

[Prescott241]

I recently received my first shipment of SN from who I believe to be IC (the name of the vendor is abbreviated to IC so I'm assuming it's the same vendor everyone refers to as IC here). I live in Indiana and it went through customs just fine. This shipment is only 50 grams, and after ordering it, I read that for someone my weight, it would take around 25 grams to CTB. Since SN can cause vomiting, I ordered 100g more, and am waiting for that shipment. This feels... Surreal. I feel like freedom is in my own hands now. If I wanted to, I could leave life with the dignity I so desire. I won't use it now, but I will probably CTB sometime before, on or possibly after New Year's. This feels so liberating!

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would feel such relief at having the SN, as you have a way to leave this life behind. I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for, for when the time is right.