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Playingwiththedead

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Lilah
Jun 8, 2025
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Update :( i wouldve died but i couldnt stand the nausea so i called 911, never threw up, never even passed out, but i got bad cyanosis, they took me to the hospital and gave me the antidote and im all fine now, but since its florida they scheduled me for my mandatory psych ward trip.
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Estrella87

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Jul 27, 2026
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Omg, happy it ends well for you if I can say it like this. I hope you will recover well. Be strong!
 
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Die.A.Ria

My medical condition ruined everything
Jul 17, 2026
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Update :( i wouldve died but i couldnt stand the nausea so i called 911, never threw up, they took me to the hospital and gave me the antidote and im all fine now, fuck this method fr next time im just hangingView attachment 206791View attachment 206792
Dont worry its not your fault that you didnt follow the protocol its probably because of all the emotions and you just couldnt handle it and wait any longer we are all here supporting you i wish you recover soon :)
 
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Lilah
Jun 8, 2025
34
Omggg hope your okay :( its okay dont feel bad for it not working its really hard to CTB🩷

We are here for you 🩷🩷
Oh it wouldve worked, but i called 911
Dont worry its not your fault that you didnt follow the protocol its probably because of all the emotions and you just couldnt handle it and wait any longer we are all here supporting you
This is so sweet, thank you ❤️❤️
 
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Estrella87

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Jul 27, 2026
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Maybe my curiosity is bad, and it's not the goal, but we are many here to wonder about sn effects. How did you feel apart of nausea? Dizzy? Fingers gets really blue? How many time you think it's needed for really be out?

I've never been a big fan of this method because it seems painful imo, but it's true we have few feedbacks (make sense) so plz forgive my curiosity if you feel it too intrusive.
 
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darksouls

Angelic
May 10, 2025
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get well soon, sending much love ♥️♥️♥️
 
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nayomi

nayomi

only the truth will save us all
Jul 19, 2026
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Where can I read the most updated protocol in full. The SS megathread seems to be outdated as it was written in 2018
we have the same biology since 2018 dont worry it is not outdated
 
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Die.A.Ria

My medical condition ruined everything
Jul 17, 2026
241
Where can I read the most updated protocol in full. The SS megathread seems to be outdated as it was written in 2018
It doesnt really change much but people have different opinions on how much SN you should take but i just follow the table they gave in the megathread it shows you how much you need depending on your weight
 
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Lilah
Jun 8, 2025
34
Maybe my curiosity is bad, and it's not the goal, but we are many here to wonder about sn effects. How did you feel apart of nausea? Dizzy? Fingers gets really blue? How many time you think it's needed for really be out?

I've never been a big fan of this method because it seems painful imo, but it's true we have few feedbacks (make sense) so plz forgive my curiosity if you feel it too intrusive.
It wouldve taken several hours, because i really didnt take enough for me to die right away. i took the SN at 3:13am and i didnt get the antidote MB until 3 hours later, and in those 3 hours i truly felt like i was dying, chest and stomach tightness, half-way conscious, too weak to move, walk, (when i decided to call 911, i got up out of bed took a few steps and collapsed on the floor, nearly passing out because i was so weak) even talking made me feel weaker, my hearing sounded as if i had cotton balls stuck in my ears, very bad cyanosis as if i was already dead, that's all i can think of
 
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Estrella87

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Jul 27, 2026
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Thanks for your feedback. Hopefully you called 911 would have been an awful death that nobody deserves
 
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Oct 22, 2025
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I'm glad you survived without any lasting consequences. You said that you didn't take any antiemetics, did you skip the fasting too?
 
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Lilah
Jun 8, 2025
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Thanks for your feedback. Hopefully you called 911 would have been an awful death that nobody deserves
If im being honest other than the nausea (that only lasted long enough to urge me to call 911 and then went away once i called 🙃) it felt great, the feeling of dying is oddly pleasurable to me. If there was a drug that made me feel that way id be addicted to it
I'm glad you survived without any lasting consequences. You said that you didn't take any antiemetics, did you skip the fasting too?
No thats the only thing i did properly lol. No food and barely a drink for 24 hours prior
 
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Gild-Holm-’Ur

Old man
Jun 28, 2026
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I am wishing good things for you.
 
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fluorescentpearl

Siin me kohtume siis, See on ju armastus hüperbolo
Jul 19, 2026
575
Update :( i wouldve died but i couldnt stand the nausea so i called 911, never threw up, never even passed out, but i got bad cyanosis, they took me to the hospital and gave me the antidote and im all fine now, but since its florida they scheduled me for my mandatory psych ward trip.
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I apologize if I'm intruding but I feel a smidge confused now, who is this hubby you speak of? Is it Chris Cornell?
 

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