Ready to CTB...like right now.

[virginiawoolf86]

I feel like the world is closing in on me. This isn't a panic attack, it's like my brain went black. Think of your brain and think of it going dark. It's the most suffocating feeling. A year ago I would've never imagined myself in this place. Every day is hell. I've gone from believing it's a place where you might go when you die, to an actual place here and now. Like what fucking asshole was like "I'm going to have this one graduate with honors, but steal everything about her and give her a manipulative boyfriend immediately after."

I. Just. Can't.

I'm just driving and screaming and crying my heart out. I can't anymore. This website is all I look at anymore because it's time to die. I don't want to, but if this is how life is, I just can't anymore. I just want to be put out of my misery. I'd pay someone to kill me at this point.

 

[Fullof pain]

Aww sweetheart, I feel your pain. If I could take it all away from you I would. But all I can do is send you my love and hugs.