Please help me find my peace

[Iloveyoumommy]

I am really really really really sad and I can't keep living anymore. I have been wanting to go for almost a year now. It's too much, I can't take it.

Help me someone please

I live in Australia- is there any way of getting SN here? Drug dealers or if anybody knows someone or some way, anything?

If not SN what other relatively painless but foolproof ways are there? I saw Nembutal was what they use for VAD on this site but from what I've read it's impossible to get.

I'm a little coward and don't want to jump, drown or hang. I've had an ED near death experience so I could try starving to death but I read it's near impossible. What else is out there that can be done in Australia? Please please help me. I'm so so sad.

 

[peacebenow]

I can understand your desperation.
I agree and would not consider resorting to your ED. It is currently very challenging to get SN from DSL delivered easily to any country. His packages are not passing customs in U* for the most part. It has happened to me twice and to many many others. In all different countries. Many in Australia and many not. I am not in Australia but know of Australians that have experienced and continue to experience the same issues as me. There are some Australians that have luckily received it from him. However, overall it is not a sure thing. N is impossible to find, yes. VSED really needs be done with medical support. I understand about the other methods that seem extra scary. Something will happen and be figured out with all this. Every moment there is change even when it feels like everything is stagnant.