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GreenTree

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Jun 1, 2020
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What do you think is the most likely way to ctb. I'm swaying towards impulsive ctb. When life gets too much and think fuck it and attempt. I think when people plan to ctb this day or that day, it rarely happens like that. What do you think.
 
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Sea Turtle

Sea Turtle

She/Her ✨ Achieving True Peace
Aug 12, 2020
346
I feel like with impulsive CTB, the SI will be stronger and has more room for error. By this I mean the SI of actually CTBing, I've personally found it easy to take the first steps impulsively, but not actually going through with the act.

With planning, I believe it is possible to get to a point of true acceptance (or close enough).

I would be concerned with something going wrong or failing if done impulsively.
 
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AnestheticVoid

AnestheticVoid

❤️ Dissociatives ❤️
Feb 17, 2022
273
I think you need both to be successful. A planned method and an impulse to attempt. Solely impulse you're bound to fail and just having a plan leaves you with shitty SI to overcome.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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In my case, I would only ctb if I had everything planned and I was confident that it would succeed, the fear of failure is the main thing that is holding me back from ctb. I do believe though, that I would never be able to stick to a set date for ctb and I would leave when the pain of living gets to be unbearable and I get desperate.
 
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GreenTree

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Jun 1, 2020
568
I think you need both to be successful. A planned method and an impulse to attempt. Solely impulse you're bound to fail and just having a plan leaves you with shitty SI to overcome.
I don't think impulsive your bound to fail. I've heard loads of people stab themselves or jump or hang with no planning.
I feel like with impulsive CTB, the SI will be stronger and has more room for error. By this I mean the SI of actually CTBing, I've personally found it easy to take the first steps impulsively, but not actually going through with the act.

With planning, I believe it is possible to get to a point of true acceptance (or close enough).

I would be concerned with something going wrong or failing if done impulsively.
I've overcome the SI fear with a failed hanging. I think when the pain becomes unbearable you overcome the fear. I think that's what will happen again with me although I'm very scared of failing again. Dealing with all the shame and questions and hurt you see your family in.
In my case, I would only ctb if I had everything planned and I was confident that it would succeed, the fear of failure is the main thing that is holding me back from ctb. I do believe though, that I would never be able to stick to a set date for ctb and I would leave when the pain of living gets to be unbearable and I get desperate.
A plan would be ideal but how do we plan for something we have no experience in (as we only do it once). It's hell trying to plan will probably fail. Globally there are a million suicides a year at least. With all the failed attempts (proper ones, not cries for help) something has to change and make it a human right to die. I don't think a cry for help attempt would sign the dotted line for euthanasia where I'm sure 99% of people on here would.
 
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height jumper 69

height jumper 69

Member
Dec 16, 2021
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both impulsive and planned suicide produce the same result, i guess impulsive means you go out feeling lots of heavy emotion. personally, impulsivity removed all doubts and fears from all of the times ive attempted
 
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AnestheticVoid

AnestheticVoid

❤️ Dissociatives ❤️
Feb 17, 2022
273
I don't think impulsive your bound to fail. I've heard loads of people stab themselves or jump or hang with no planning.

I've overcome the SI fear with a failed hanging. I think when the pain becomes unbearable you overcome the fear. I think that's what will happen again with me although I'm very scared of failing again. Dealing with all the shame and questions and hurt you see your family in.

A plan would be ideal but how do we plan for something we have no experience in (as we only do it once). It's hell trying to plan will probably fail. Globally there are a million suicides a year at least. With all the failed attempts (proper ones, not cries for help) something has to change and make it a human right to die. I don't think a cry for help attempt would sign the dotted line for euthanasia where I'm sure 99% of people on here would.
Idk the stats state that there are like 10x more attempts of suicide than successful ones. I think impulsivity would be the cause of that huge gap.

you truly think you've overcome SI? How did you fail at hanging?
 
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CiproKilledMe

CiproKilledMe

Experienced
Mar 23, 2021
243
I have so much respect for people who are able to choose a time and a date and then follow through with it. The balls that that takes. I guess I'm not that courageous of a person because I just can't seem to do it despite needing to GTFOOH so incredibly badly. Unfortunately my method (N) requires some pre-planning. I'm not a gun person but I really wish I owned one now. Better yet, I need someone to come shoot me in the head while I sleep.
 
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GreenTree

Mage
Jun 1, 2020
568
Idk the stats state that there are like 10x more attempts of suicide than successful ones. I think impulsivity would be the cause of that huge gap.

you truly think you've overcome SI? How did you fail at hanging?
Snapped ligature.
 
VoidDesirer22

VoidDesirer22

A dream inside a locked room
Sep 6, 2021
673
I feel like with impulsive CTB, the SI will be stronger and has more room for error. By this I mean the SI of actually CTBing, I've personally found it easy to take the first steps impulsively, but not actually going through with the act.

With planning, I believe it is possible to get to a point of true acceptance (or close enough).

I would be concerned with something going wrong or failing if done impulsively.
It is a strange sensation having accepted something you never pictured yourself accepting.

I am totally accepting as I am when I go to sleep at night.
 
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Littlepaws

Littlepaws

Member
Sep 4, 2021
77
My method requires a degree of planning in order to be effective. I've already acquired the materials and they are just sitting there under my bed right now.

Even though I've planned my exit, It will be an impulsive decision to carry out an attempt.
 

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