Help Plan C

[meowmentous]

I stopped looking on this website for a bit because I believed that I was starting to have an upturn in how I was feeling and thinking.
Clearly, and sadly, I was wrong.

I still want to hopefully try and get help, but I want to make a Plan C in case nothing works. I don't think SN is for me, as I know it causes vomiting, but my gag reflex is extremely strong. I doubt I would be able to keep any of it down. So partial is what I think my Plan C will be.
The reason why it's Plan C is because Plan A was to be on medication… which kind of just feels like I'm taking a sugar pill right now. Plan B will be therapy + medication, of course. I should probably talk to my doctor soon.

Anyway, I am American, so I barely know the metric system. Apologies, haha. But 12mm = 0.472 inches. So if I round up to 0.5, that'll be okay, right? I know to try to aim for the Carotids, not the Jugulars. Also, I work at a hardware store as a cashier. I can go farther, but this is just extremely convenient, and I think I may of found one that works. If one of my colleagues question me, what should I say it's for? My only idea currently is that I'm making a DIY hammock. I also need to find a place to hide it from my family. I can figure that out on my own, but that's just another thought.

Anyway, I still want to try therapy first, as I said before. It's my goal, and I want to get better! But I just feel like if that doesn't work, I want to have an out planned. This world hates me and could care less about the idiotic minimum wage worker that I am, even though most of my family but my brother says I'm too smart for this. And it's not like my friends try to comfort me anymore. Like, I understand it can be hard to comfort someone who outwardly shares their thoughts of suicide. But… I just wish someone said something, is all, you know?

I'm getting off track. I apologize.
Anyway (again), this is my Plan C. If anyone has any comments, feel free to leave them. If I'm wrong about anything, please let me know.

 

[Romanticize]

im similar to you, I vomit when tootg brushing, or smelling something bad, I dry vomit on a daily basis, so my stomach even starts to hurt a lot.

I plan to do SN, vomit it, and still drink second glass. If I drink 2x 20g, even if i vomit 80%, it should still work.

But i feel you bro, it sucks. I also have slow gut mobility so my SN plan is double compromised.

 

[bankai]

Anyway, I still want to try therapy first, as I said before. It's my goal, and I want to get better!

Fren you're the best of us.That's the spirit. You're stronger than you know. Keep fighting, keep struggling, struggler.When you feel you have done it all and it just doesn't make sense anymore. Well. Let's talk about next steps.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

If you're going to buy a rope, why not just buy it somewhere else?????? That way the concern about what colleagues might say is voided.

 

[meowmentous]

If you're going to buy a rope, why not just buy it somewhere else?????? That way the concern about what colleagues might say is voided.

I mean, I did say 'I can go farther…'.

But I also only work early in the day. I could also just go late at night and not see anyone I'd be on the same schedule with. Either I do that, or probably go to a different store. I just hate driving. More so, I have severe anxiety with it, and I'm not the best driver. It was more so that it's close by and I don't have to go too far with my anxiety-riddled mess, haha. But yeah, it's true. I might just go farther. It might just be better.

im similar to you, I vomit when tootg brushing, or smelling something bad, I dry vomit on a daily basis, so my stomach even starts to hurt a lot.

I plan to do SN, vomit it, and still drink second glass. If I drink 2x 20g, even if i vomit 80%, it should still work.

But i feel you bro, it sucks. I also have slow gut mobility so my SN plan is double compromised.

Yeah. When I was little, I vomited when having the doctor put the stick down my throat. I couldn't swallow pills for years and they had to be grounded up into powder form for me to swallow them down. But yeah, it's ass. Gagging is a horrible feeling.

 

[plan c]

LOL if u aren't talking about me haha.

But that's what i mean by plan c. For me it's a "good" way to think about ctb. Always have sth up ur sleeve don't u?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I mean, I did say 'I can go farther…'.

I guess you did. Only trying to make the point "why even consider buying it where you work?". I should have put an exclamation point on my (meant to be) rhetorical question along with the question marks, and I should have italicized the "not" -

"If you're going to buy a rope, why not just buy it somewhere else??????!"

My bad.

 

[meowmentous]

I guess you did. Only trying to make the point "why even consider buying it where you work?". I should have put an exclamation point on my (meant to be) rhetorical question along with the question marks, and I should have italicized the "not" -

"If you're going to buy a rope, why not just buy it somewhere else??????!"

My bad.

No worries! I'm ass at reading tone. It's more so my bad than yours, I just suffer from neurodivergencies, lol. Yeah, I understand where you're coming from. The consideration was only mainly due to the convenience and my anxiety with driving. Plus, my car recently has been having trouble, so my dad doesn't recommend me going too far. But another store won't be super far away. 40 minutes there and back at maximum.