Though I haven't been officially diagnosed with any mental illness I do have paranoid and obsessive thoughts that have make functioning normally a chore on most days. I am often paranoid that I will die, go to jail, lose all my friends and family etc. and these thoughts are slowly ruining my life. Often I haven't actually done anything to warrant these thoughts but the constant feeling of "what if" is one of the reasons of me wanting to CTB. I'm also generally very sensitive and often have to isolate myself from others since things like a joke, criticism, or just discussing something that I disagree with or makes me uncomfortable just makes hyperfocus on what was said for days if not weeks.I realize that I'm mostly just being unnecessarily sensitive but I feel like my sensitivity alone is enough to warrant me CTBing due to how debilitating it can get.Sometimes I feel like death is the only way to stop myself from worrying so much.
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Pluto
Cat Extremist
- Dec 27, 2020
- 6,943
Nobody should have to live with such a psychological burden. But before CTBing, consider that there can be treatment and support from others who are going through the same thing.
Paranoia
Paranoia is the irrational and persistent feeling that people are ‘out to get you’ or that you are the subject of persistent, intrusive attention by others.
www.betterhealth.vic.gov.au
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 48,653
I'm sorry you are suffering, it sounds really debilitating what you are experiencing. Our thoughts are capable of torturing us and it can make living painful. I wish you well.
Tomoko
Unpopular
- Aug 12, 2021
- 123
I'm so sorry. I go through the same thing every day at work. I'm actually about to go there right now and nothing can prepare me for this feeling no matter how many times I experience it. Good luck out there. Hope you can find the peace you need to beat this. I'm trying hard myself.
StateOfMind
Liberty or Death
- Apr 30, 2020
- 1,195
Just because you are paranoid doesn't mean they are not after you.
Also, staying off weed / drugs / SSRI's seems to help.
tryingtoescape
Experienced
- Dec 30, 2019
- 213
I go through such intense paranoia every day. I'm constantly terrified. Just criticism or hearing people discuss something I disagree with makes me so uncomfortable and paranoid too. I'll also hyperfocus on what was said. It's constant and it's debilitating, on top of my physical illness. I also think my sensitivity is enough reason for me to kill myself.
Before you do that though, if you haven't been a psychiatric doctor yet, I'd recommend seeing a psychiatrist and psychologist. Medication and therapy can help some people with this. Has not helped me but it's worth it to try before.
I can't handle this level of daily paranoia + my other issues anymore. I'm too sensitive for this life, and my brain is prone to too much paranoia. It's so intense and I tell people and they don't understand, and sometimes I wonder if I'm the only one who experiences such a level of fear and that scares me and makes me feel so alone. I'm sorry you're suffering through it too.Similar threads
