skepsis
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- Jul 16, 2023
- 20
The only reason I'm sill around is my family. I would destroy my family if I'd kill myself right now, I don't know how I'm supposed to change that but that's not my point.
To those of you who are also ready to do it but something is holding you back (e.g. family, partner, ...), do you ever feel like there are moments where you just don't care about that? Like I more often have that feeling that in the end nothing matters anyway, and more than that I was thrown into this shit without being asked, so it's my choice and everyone has to accept it, even my family, as much as I love them. Those feelings could make me kill myself spontaneously, I've even made a rope ready which is hanging in my bathroom ready to use. I'm worried about that because as for now I feel like I can't hurt my family.
Do you guys have something like that too? Like feeling that the obstacles between you and doing it sometimes fade and you could actually take the chance?
To those of you who are also ready to do it but something is holding you back (e.g. family, partner, ...), do you ever feel like there are moments where you just don't care about that? Like I more often have that feeling that in the end nothing matters anyway, and more than that I was thrown into this shit without being asked, so it's my choice and everyone has to accept it, even my family, as much as I love them. Those feelings could make me kill myself spontaneously, I've even made a rope ready which is hanging in my bathroom ready to use. I'm worried about that because as for now I feel like I can't hurt my family.
Do you guys have something like that too? Like feeling that the obstacles between you and doing it sometimes fade and you could actually take the chance?
