Venting One more vent into the ocean

[Konnsz]

its not like it matters, nothing fucking matters, i tried my best to talk to people I tried my best to have friends, i tried myself to get out of this depressive hole, but I guess I am just not a likeable person

I am not likeable, I guess that's the only reason on why no one usually stays with me.
I have tried fucking everything I even developed social skills but it's just not fucking enough holy shit

It is never fucking enough never enough.

I always said to myself if I leave college without making actual friendships i will just stop trying and finally fucking kill myself.
I want to give up still It seems like there's little to no progress.
I mean I see myself in the past and i have definitely went through a lot of change.
Maybe it's part of the change I'm going through?
i said i was not desperate after the last situation i went through but I dont know if I am not desperate right now then why am I feeling like this?
such a stupid vent/rant that will get lost with all of the other posts.

I need to be careful with these new razors, they are definitely way more sharper than the things I used to cut myself before.

I don't want to go on the risk on getting stiches...again

I feel lightheaded now

everything is pointless

 

[Konnsz]

everybody is too busy with themselves if you are not important enough