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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
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Hi dear ones

Please don't even think of OD if you don't have Nembutal


Everything else is just plain useless.

I have tried so many attempts with OD. I mixed benzos with alcohol, i used extreme doses of benzos, n I'm still here to tell the tale.

So please don't even think of OD


Unless you've Nembutal. Nothing else works for OD


I'm not sure about Ket and fent
You can explore that if it's available to you
 
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zanshu

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Jul 19, 2023
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I wouldn't go as far as saying that it is a non-method, it is just not advised to rely on an OD to kill you, because there's a very high chance it won't work, and if it does, it would be a pretty shit way to go.
There are many people who have died from OD, whether that be by benzos, antidepressants, even pain meds - so yes, it can kill you. But so can choking on a piece of popcorn. Does that mean it will definitely make you die? No.

With that being said, I absolutely agree with you: Don't try to CTB by overdosing on meds. It probably won't work and if it does, your liver or kidneys will be dead before you are.
 
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Serena 2026

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Jan 15, 2026
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Olá, queridos!

Por favor, nem pense em overdose se você não tiver Nembutal.


Todo o resto é simplesmente inútil.

Já tentei tantas vezes a overdose. Misturei benzodiazepínicos com álcool, usei doses extremas de benzodiazepínicos, e ai
Olá, queridos!

Por favor, nem pense em overdose se você não tiver Nembutal.


Todo o resto é simplesmente inútil.

Já tentei tantas vezes a overdose. Misturei benzodiazepínicos com álcool, usei doses extremas de benzodiazepínicos, e ainda estou aqui para contar a história.

Então, por favor, nem pense em overdose.


A menos que você tenha Nembutal. Nada mais funciona para overdose.


Não tenho certeza sobre Ket e fen.
Você pode explorar essa opção, se estiver disponível para você.
Concordo com você... minha última tentativa — usando benzodiazepínicos, álcool e 300 comprimidos de remédio para o coração que minha mãe deixou depois de falecer — só me levou a um coma na UTI por 20 dias. E isso só porque fui encontrado 12 horas depois... mas 12 horas? Se uma overdose desses remédios fosse um método eficaz, eu não estaria aqui para contar a história!🤷🏻‍♀️🫤
 
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Yes of course, dear one. That's why it's listed in the pinned thread on non-methods…


 
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Feb 11, 2024
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I agree with you... my last attempt — using benzodiazepines, alcohol, and 300 heart medication pills my mother left me after she passed away — only led to me being in a coma in the ICU for 20 days. And that's only because I was found 12 hours later... but 12 hours? If an overdose of those medications were an effective method, I wouldn't be here to tell the story!🤷🏻‍♀️🫤
🤯 Your OD experience is crazier than mine. I never went to coma. I was just out for a few days at the max.
Overdose is such a waste of time and efforts. Internet says otherwise.. It says that sufficient benzos can cause death which is definitely not the case or else none of us would be here
Yes of course, that's why it's listed in the pinned thread on non-methods…


Thanks for sharing these resources..so anyone who visits this topic can look at these accompanying threads and be educated of what not to do
 
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Serena 2026

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Jan 15, 2026
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🤯 Your OD experience is crazier than mine. I never went to coma. I was just out for a few days at the max.
Overdose is such a waste of time and efforts. Internet says otherwise.. It says that sufficient benzos can cause death which is definitely not the case or else none of us would be here

Thanks for sharing these resources..so anyone who visits this topic can look at these accompanying threads and be educated of what not to do
True—if it were a good protocol, we wouldn't be here to tell the tale...🤔🙄 ...Wait, come to think of it... I was diagnosed at the 12-hour mark; what if it had been 24 hours? Would I be dead? Maybe it just takes a little longer to kick in, but we'll never know!
 
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ctb_warrior

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True—if it were a good protocol, we wouldn't be here to tell the tale...🤔🙄 ...Wait, come to think of it... I was diagnosed at the 12-hour mark; what if it had been 24 hours? Would I be dead? Maybe it just takes a little longer to kick in, but we'll never know!
To the best of my knowledge, my OD attempt would never have lead to death. I woke up every time i took benzos. As per your description of your OD attempt, may be without medical help, it could have worked out or may be just cripple the body to anyways go to hospital for treatment
 
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While I'd agree that in most cases it's an unreliable method, I still think that the correct combination at correct doses could lead to a somewhat reliable attempt. However, you'd need to be aware of the risks you're taking. I currently have a lot of benzos, opioids, antihistamines and even some fentanyl. I think that I could succesfully CTB with a combination, what that combination is however I am still not very sure of.

I also have my trusted SN as a backup, but I don't prefer going that route because I'd rather just nod off and not wake up than to drink something salty for my last drink.
 
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While I'd agree that in most cases it's an unreliable method, I still think that the correct combination at correct doses could lead to a somewhat reliable attempt. However, you'd need to be aware of the risks you're taking. I currently have a lot of benzos, opioids, antihistamines and even some fentanyl. I think that I could succesfully CTB with a combination, what that combination is however I am still not very sure of.

I also have my trusted SN as a backup, but I don't prefer going that route because I'd rather just nod off and not wake up than to drink something salty for my last drink.
I have similar opinion. After reading through the threads, I have come to know opioids work differently. Stuff like fent can help ctb. So, i think you've the right ingredients for a successful ctb.
Even I'm reluctant in going for SN, I'm highly likely to throw up. My body has become sensitive to stuffs. So, it automatically ejects anything that's toxic.
Last month, i don't know what I had for lunch, but it became toxic in my body, and i was feeling really weird in my upper body. Suddenly, I had the pukish feeling and all the toxins were out and i felt so much of relief.
 
Musiclover338

Musiclover338

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Sep 25, 2024
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Hey i tried to overdose on benzos and alcohol too from the darkweb and im pretty sure i got brain damage, not sure if it was from lack of oxygen or too much alcohol, i only had 2 xanax after binging on them for a week. (could of been the buildup in my blood) but either way i woke up with a massive headache and brain zaps

sharp stabbing brain zap in the back of my head and i never been the same. my story is on reddit
literally ruined my life by trying to overdose

@ctb_warrior you dont feel different after all the attempts? I have permanent headaches now, and erectile dysfunction. & i feel very numb all of my body , including my emotions are now blunted.
 
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ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,220
Hey i tried to overdose on benzos and alcohol too from the darkweb and im pretty sure i got brain damage, not sure if it was from lack of oxygen or too much alcohol, i only had 2 xanax after binging on them for a week. (could of been the buildup in my blood) but either way i woke up with a massive headache and brain zaps

sharp stabbing brain zap in the back of my head and i never been the same. my story is on reddit
literally ruined my life by trying to overdose

@ctb_warrior you dont feel different after all the attempts? I have permanent headaches now, and erectile dysfunction. & i feel very numb all of my body , including my emotions are now blunted.
I'm sorry that you've had to face all of it due to your od attempts. Thanks for sharing your story

My OD attempts have harmed me as well. It affected my liver, so that straight away messed with my metabolism and my night shift added to it. I had elevated levels of cholesterol and triglycerides. I had kidney stones. I first encountered premature greying of hair. And then, rapid hair loss. And my depression medicines have affected my libido. I don't feel sexual urges anymore. Emotionally I'm fine and don't face any headaches. In my house, they believe in homeopathy and in these 36 years, i have seen homeopathy to be very effective. So, earlier i used to have frontal headache, i read materia Medica and took cimicifuga 200 and it cured my headache.
For cholestrol and kidney stones, i took homeopathy and now cholesterol is back to normal, triglycerides has lowered but still outside the normal mark, kidney stones disappeared without any surgery or allopathic medicines.
However, yes cortisol production is still high. As I'm mostly in fight or flight mode.
 
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I'm sorry that you've had to face all of it due to your od attempts. Thanks for sharing your story

My OD attempts have harmed me as well. It affected my liver, so that straight away messed with my metabolism and my night shift added to it. I had elevated levels of cholesterol and triglycerides. I had kidney stones. I first encountered premature greying of hair. And then, rapid hair loss. And my depression medicines have affected my libido. I don't feel sexual urges anymore. Emotionally I'm fine and don't face any headaches. In my house, they believe in homeopathy and in these 36 years, i have seen homeopathy to be very effective. So, earlier i used to have frontal headache, i read materia Medica and took cimicifuga 200 and it cured my headache.
For cholestrol and kidney stones, i took homeopathy and now cholesterol is back to normal, triglycerides has lowered but still outside the normal mark, kidney stones disappeared without any surgery or allopathic medicines.
However, yes cortisol production is still high. As I'm mostly in fight or flight mode.

is this cimicifuga stuff like ancient Chinese medicine or something? doing research on it now, i wouldnt want to CTB if i could just stop the headaches and brain zaps from my last attempt tbh

my last attempt on benzos and alcohol also messed up my libido/ sexual function, i cant feel much down there anymore but cilias works sometimes sometimes it doesnt. if u want to try that
 
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ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
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is this cimicifuga stuff like ancient Chinese medicine or something? doing research on it now, i wouldnt want to CTB if i could just stop the headaches and brain zaps from my last attempt tbh

my last attempt on benzos and alcohol also messed up my libido/ sexual function, i cant feel much down there anymore but cilias works sometimes sometimes it doesnt. if u want to try that
Cimicifuga 200 is homeopathy.. homeopathy was created by a german allopath..hahneman.
It's suitable for frontal headache..i refer materia medica to see which medicine i need to take based on what symptom. I'll recommend you to connect with a professional homeopath who has good reputation.

I used to have lot of headaches in 2008. So much so that i couldn't even study for exams at times. In my case, cimicifuga worked like magic. I don't get any headache now..at the most, when i drink alcohol, my head feels heavy the next day..

I'm sure allopathy would also have solution to it.. consult a good gp who can guide you

As for libido, I'm also struggling with that after i started taking these psychiatric medicines.
Another friend suffered from it, after marriage, he had an embarrassing situation, he consulted a sexologist, who gave him some costly medicines and he was fine in 4-6 months. He has two healthy kids now.
 

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