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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
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I can see a lot of people who visit SaSu are so desperate to die. That desperation is understandable. I have been desperate to die as well. Unfortunately, I'm still alive after trying to ctb for the last 23 years.

My humble request to anyone who's desperate and wants to ctb asap, please take a step back, don't let your desperation make you try a non method or fail in executing an actual method.

A failed attempt only brings more frustration.

Take a step back, plan well, and then, execute a proper method with as much surety as possible.

Good luck 🤞

Wish you all, all the love, luck, peace and success❤️🫂✨
 
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I can see a lot of people who visit SaSu are so desperate to die. That desperation is understandable. I have been desperate to die as well. Unfortunately, I'm still alive after trying to ctb for the last 23 years.

My humble request to anyone who's desperate and wants to ctb asap, please take a step back, don't let your desperation make you try a non method or fail in executing an actual method.

A failed attempt only brings more frustration.

Take a step back, plan well, and then, execute a proper method with as much surety as possible.

Good luck 🤞

Wish you all, all the love, luck, peace and success❤️🫂✨
If you are considering using some random drug(s), make sure to at least research them a bit first. At the very least, google the ld50. It's fine to make a thread asking about px drugs, but there's a good chance no one will reply with useful information.
 
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I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
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If you are considering using some random drug(s), make sure to at least research them a bit first. At the very least, google the ld50. It's fine to make a thread asking about px drugs, but there's a good chance no one will reply with useful information.
That's interesting. I'll Google that. And it's very important to research before trying OD. Most of my attempts were OD and i used to go by the side effects mentioned. They used to mention that benzos can lead to death. I have tried the most extreme attempt possible. I used 40 strips of ativan that I borrowed from my home. I was only knocked out for 6-7 days.

You are right. Before SaSu, i asked so many people on other socials, to help me with a way that could help me CTB. A lot of people know other ways to CTB, but they don't want to get into any trouble so they gatekeep it. I had heard of a method using Celphos, Indian farmers used it to ctb extensively. Now, they have modified the composition of Celphos such that it's not possible to ctb using that.
Similarly, there'd be a lot of other ways that are hidden in plain sight.
I just googled ld50, it's insightful, thanks for this . It's worth the research
 
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If you are considering using some random drug(s), make sure to at least research them a bit first. At the very least, google the ld50. It's fine to make a thread asking about px drugs, but there's a good chance no one will reply with useful information.

 
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I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
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What happens if for whatever reason someone doesnt have access to a method that does work, and only has access to a nonmethod?

(This is a hypothetical question, I don't know how likely it is of someone actually being in this situation)

This isn't me, but if it was, I'd try a nonmethod knowing I'll probably fail, just because I hate this life so much I'd rather try to die (risking becoming a vegetable) and fail than not try at all. But I've never attempted before. For those with experience - is this a bad take?

For OP, I'm curious, with all the attempts you've done for all those years, do you regret any? I'm so sorry you've been struggling and attempting for so long 😓
 
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I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
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What happens if for whatever reason someone doesnt have access to a method that does work, and only has access to a nonmethod?

(This is a hypothetical question, I don't know how likely it is of someone actually being in this situation)

This isn't me, but if it was, I'd try a nonmethod knowing I'll probably fail, just because I hate this life so much I'd rather try to die (risking becoming a vegetable) and fail than not try at all. But I've never attempted before. For those with experience - is this a bad take?

For OP, I'm curious, with all the attempts you've done for all those years, do you regret any? I'm so sorry you've been struggling and attempting for so long 😓
That's a really beautiful question and I'm glad you asked this.

I would love to answer this

I don't really regret any of my CTB attempts in the past, as i made sure that no matter how desperate I was I didn't do anything that would leave me in a limbo. Like, crippled or may be brain dead or brain damaged.

I still wish to CTB and I'll when the right time comes, when I'll have the right method that I'm sure of


If someone doesn't have a method, my strong advice from my own experience is to not attempt anything if one doesn't have a proper method. Because most of the non methods may have long term implications and may cripple someone or create disabilities that can prevent them for attempting a full fledged CTB attempt in future.

So, my advice is, wait for the right opportunity, look for the right method that suits you, go for it only when you are assured that you'll attain peace that you look for


I landed in ICU twice..and that was not a pleasant experience. I can't handle that now when I'm twice that age..

So, I'm just waiting for the right moment and right method
Thanks for asking this question. Feel free to ask any other question that comes to your mind
I'm not sure how did i miss this comment.
You are absolutely right.
ODs are a big no

I'm the living proof of that.
I tried everything i could . The worst, 40 strips of ativan that's a benzo.
Nothing happens.. The internet lies. It says that one could land in coma or even death.
That's a lie.
I was only knocked off for a week. And i was fine after that. I thought i would never wake up.. But here I'm several years later, alive to tell the tale
 
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Serena 2026

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Aside from the overdose—the meds didn't work, I ended up in a coma and the ICU, and my brain swelled severely, so it took a while for me to get better (if you can even call it that, haha)—some time later I had a cerebral thrombosis. That meant more days and days in the ICU; my neurologist said it was likely due to my CTB, but anyway, I ended up recovering without any lasting physical effects... except for the emotional ones, of course!! 🥹🫣
 
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ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
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Aside from the overdose—the meds didn't work, I ended up in a coma and the ICU, and my brain swelled severely, so it took a while for me to get better (if you can even call it that, haha)—some time later I had a cerebral thrombosis. That meant more days and days in the ICU; my neurologist said it was likely due to my CTB, but anyway, I ended up recovering without any lasting physical effects... except for the emotional ones, of course!! 🥹🫣
Damn, it'd have been tough..ICU trips are quite difficult.
I'm glad you recovered from the physical effects atleast.
ODs are so terrible that they do nothing enough to cause the main goal of CTB. I wish you peace when you OD this time with the peaceful pill✨😇 take care
 
Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
544
I'm not sure how did i miss this comment.
You are absolutely right.
ODs are a big no

I'm the living proof of that.
I tried everything i could . The worst, 40 strips of ativan that's a benzo.
Nothing happens.. The internet lies. It says that one could land in coma or even death.
That's a lie.
I was only knocked off for a week. And i was fine after that. I thought i would never wake up.. But here I'm several years later, alive to tell the tale
OD is definitely the worst "method" discussed here. Besides cop gunshot. These two I would absolutely never try, even with my earlier comment!
 
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ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
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OD is definitely the worst "method" discussed here. Besides cop gunshot. These two I would absolutely never try, even with my earlier comment!
So true. I have relied on OD to attempt ctb most of my life and i have failed at ctb miserably
 
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Aside from the overdose—the meds didn't work, I ended up in a coma and the ICU, and my brain swelled severely, so it took a while for me to get better (if you can even call it that, haha)—some time later I had a cerebral thrombosis. That meant more days and days in the ICU; my neurologist said it was likely due to my CTB, but anyway, I ended up recovering without any lasting physical effects... except for the emotional ones, of course!! 🥹🫣
you probably had lasting physical effects that just weren't significant enough to be noticed, or weren't attributed to the attempt
 
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Apr 19, 2018
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That's interesting. I'll Google that. And it's very important to research before trying OD. Most of my attempts were OD and i used to go by the side effects mentioned. They used to mention that benzos can lead to death. I have tried the most extreme attempt possible. I used 40 strips of ativan that I borrowed from my home. I was only knocked out for 6-7 days.

You are right. Before SaSu, i asked so many people on other socials, to help me with a way that could help me CTB. A lot of people know other ways to CTB, but they don't want to get into any trouble so they gatekeep it. I had heard of a method using Celphos, Indian farmers used it to ctb extensively. Now, they have modified the composition of Celphos such that it's not possible to ctb using that.
Similarly, there'd be a lot of other ways that are hidden in plain sight.
I just googled ld50, it's insightful, thanks for this . It's worth the research
Ah that's real interesting about the Celphos! Ironically SN was for many years a method hidden in plain sight...
 
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ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
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Ah that's real interesting about the Celphos! Ironically SN was for many years a method hidden in plain sight...
So true. If at all I knew about SN even 3-4 years ago while it was still available, I could have managed to CTB. Now it's no longer available easily.
 

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