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death137

death137

miserable
Jun 25, 2020
1,166
Beside SI what other thing/s is/are preventing you from ctb now?
 
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Symbiote

Illuminated
Oct 12, 2020
3,099
The general hope that things will slowly get better once I'm out of this toxic environment. Then the malaise and misery that I'm stuck and have no choice but to end the pain.
 
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Life is pointless

Life is pointless

Member
Dec 18, 2020
37
Pain marks on my neck that will suggest that ive tried catchingtb
 
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nowhere2befound

nowhere2befound

Member
Jan 8, 2021
69
Not being able to get SN
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,183
My dad and my lack of courage to go for it!
 
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Soulless Angel

Soulless Angel

Did someone say Rum?
Jul 6, 2020
1,272
UK lockdown :(
 
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262653

262653

Cluesome
Apr 5, 2018
1,733
Lack of motivation to do so, I'd say. Funny. The same thing that is required to make improvements in life is what I need in order to die. I don't feel like doing things. If not for my family which provides me subsistence, I'd be forced to either survive on my own, or to die. In this sense, I'd be better off my entire family dead, which also sounds funny, not in a conventional funny way but my kind of funny.
 
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user667

user667

Student
May 11, 2020
255
scared of failing/ getting caught, dont think i can take the taste of SN, anxiety around dying (but it comes and goes)
 
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hope2di

Member
Jan 10, 2021
11
Messing up and not dying. And all the people who'd know i tried and would look at me like they pitied me... Those people with nice and warm families, who dont understand what it is to be bullied by your own parents as if you were a piece of sh*t...
 
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Yasuke

Member
Jan 29, 2020
93
Lack of motivation to do so, I'd say. Funny. The same thing that is required to make improvements in life is what I need in order to die. I don't feel like doing things. If not for my family which provides me subsistence, I'd be forced to either survive on my own, or to die. In this sense, I'd be better off my entire family dead, which also sounds funny, not in a conventional funny way but my kind of funny.
Same here. Too lazy to CTB but not willing to put the effort to live because it's hopeless
 
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VabeniPokojneTmy

VabeniPokojneTmy

reMember
Jun 6, 2020
56
Mostly thoughts that I have to do more before ctb. Like create something, try another lifestyles..
 
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foxdie

Got my ticket
Aug 18, 2020
1,011
Guilt for those I'll leave behind. Fear of failure, fear of the pain and discomfort involved. General apathy as well. And SI too even tho you said besides :)
 
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wannagohome

wannagohome

Member
Jan 6, 2021
57
The fear to fail and end up as vegetable. Therefore i test and practise and test and practise ....
 
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Wrennie

Wrennie

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Dec 18, 2019
1,546
The fact that my family would be saddled with my medical bills if I were to fail again. We're still struggling financially after my attempt back in March... They had to pay for my ambulance ride and CT scan and hip surgery and overall hospital stay. My brother also became afflicted with a chronic illness during that timeframe so they need funds to direct toward his medical treatment.

I wouldn't choose to jump out of a window again, but even so I'm sure that an attempt with SN would prove to be costly.
 
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Busridin'26

Busridin'26

Hating every minute of being alive.
Dec 8, 2019
1,944
Before it was being stuck with abusive family

Now its:

Lack of motivation(trying to overcome this)

Lack of a plan and tbh lack of reasources.

I want to die painlessly and p. Effortlessly... That requires a lot of planning and like mental clarity that i dont have.

Honestly tho as of now im tryna kill myself by March so.

Only thing holdijg me back is where im living and having to be very careful with shit...

Only thing holding back is me. I need to overcome the lack of resolve(its the same.lack of resolve that I have to try to live long term.)
 
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Sprite_Geist

Sprite_Geist

NULL
May 27, 2020
1,699
Will, timing and a lack of an ideal location.
 
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_Kaira_

_Kaira_

This Isn't Fine
Oct 2, 2020
825
Lack of funds. No personal space. Won't be a problem though much longer.
 
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