Venting Not ready to die

[Rustysoupcan]

I have a whole bunch of sleeping pills I can OD on at any moment. But I'm just not ready. I'm frustrated that my last attempt didnt work because now I dont even want to try again. I saw how much it hurt my partner, and I dont want to put them through that. But I also dont want to be alive. I know it's probably a good thing I dont want to die yet, but it makes me frustrated because I dont know what to do now

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand how it can be frustrating and it can be like being trapped, you don't want to live, but you are not ready to die yet. I wish you well.