No water

[ravendrops]

Well, I'm out of money. I've made ask for financial help on X under my real name. But I'm also aware that I'm weeks away from homeless. No friends or family that will help. CPTSD from sustained episodic childhood torture.

I'm 42 autistic trans woman who won't make it on the streets.

Ideation has become a couple of partial hanging attempts. I've also ordered but then cancelled firearm purchase (social anxiety stops me from the in-store parts). I don't know how to do it. So I'm seriously trying now no water until my body shuts down. I'd rather die in this basement than on the street.

It's been a desperate 3+ years, remembering the beginning of my life, but maybe it's finally ending.

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This is from yesterday I posted on Reddit.

I'm 14 hours into the attempt. Feeling a little sluggish.

Still ready to go.

 

[unluckysadness]

Please don't try "no water". You'll probably just end at the hospital and it will be worse.
Did you try to ask some charity organization ? I know it can be humiliating to make a demand but I'm sure someone can help you in your area.
I suppose you're in the US as you talk about guns ?

 

[hati793]

Best way is jump from a height.

Best method is go to some big mountains and you will find the spot easily where there is no chance of leaving the bus

 

[darksouls]

sending much love

 

[PanaxMan]

Well, I'm out of money. I've made ask for financial help on X under my real name. But I'm also aware that I'm weeks away from homeless. No friends or family that will help. CPTSD from sustained episodic childhood torture.

I'm 42 autistic trans woman who won't make it on the streets.

Ideation has become a couple of partial hanging attempts. I've also ordered but then cancelled firearm purchase (social anxiety stops me from the in-store parts). I don't know how to do it. So I'm seriously trying now no water until my body shuts down. I'd rather die in this basement than on the street.

It's been a desperate 3+ years, remembering the beginning of my life, but maybe it's finally ending.

—

This is from yesterday I posted on Reddit.

I'm 14 hours into the attempt. Feeling a little sluggish.

Still ready to go.

I'm in a similar boat (way younger and perfectly healthy wise young man) hopefully the willpower of thirst doesn't destroy you (it did for me). I'm going out with no food (vsed) or what buddhists do (starvation).

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I'm so sorry life has treated you so horribly.. If possible, I really hope your situation can improve and you can come out with a renewed will to live. But if not I hope your soul finds peace regardless.