No matter how much better I get, I’ll always regret the time I lost because of my depression/anxiety.

[Vault of Memories]

Title says it all pretty much. So many valuable years, half my life at the moment, just gone. Even if it were to pull a 180, me memories would still be flooded of misery. I've set many weekends at my last, but it's official that 2020 is my final year, with December 5th more than likely being my final day. I'll create a follow up thread if this seems to be the case.

 

[hoping to lose hope]

It is depressing when you consider how much of life has been "wasted" and spent feeling awful.
We have to accept it though

 

[Sakura94]

I'd love a do over because there is so much I've missed that is no longer retrievable.
I actually don't regret time wasted in itself because it was my time to waste and there is possibly more potential time left if I don't CTB. I do have bad memories but I can repress them.

 

[WornOutLife]

Me too.
I always think how cool it would be to have a time machine and fix my past mistakes. Maybe I wouldn't be such a suicidal guy.

 

[foxdie]

I relate to this so much. I spiral in these thoughts until I have an anxiety attack and I have to stop. It's fucking brutal, I feel you fam.

 

[greebo6]

Its very understandable. I think most of us would be a bit sad about that aspect .

 

[Mistake of Nature]

I can definitely relate. As I get closer to the end, I've been thinking about everything I've missed out on. Even if my life were to magically get better, how could I deal with the fact that I've wasted my youth and missed out on so many critical experiences? The regret is too overwhelming to live with, and I'd just spend the rest of my life playing catch-up.

I'm sorry to hear that you've been feeling similarly, and I hope you are able to find some peace and comfort in one way or another.

 

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Yep no matter how much better I get I'll always regret and be sad at all the time I "wasted," idk if it can even be considered wasted because it's not like I'm in the mental state to really do anything.

Sometimes I think even if my anxiety went away I'd still want to ctb