No longer afraid of the void

[Braindead Atheist]

I've decided that I'm killing myself this Spring. I have to give my last bits of art to past teacher(shes a cold ass bitch, I doubt she'll appreciate it. I'm only giving it to her because she used to be a nice person and hope it will change her) and then its just me and the rope or whatever method I choose. I'm so close to that void of consciousness. I looked into mediums. They are all fake ass losers. There's no other side. Life is not a test. Our struggles are just regular problems; there's no deeper meaning to them. Only what ever meaning we assign them in our own head. I'm so numb. I don't even care anymore. I don't fear the void anymore, just the pain before. Life is a long bad day; death is a permanent night. Soon I will have no more problems. Soon I will go to the eternal night. Yet I don't care. It doesn't matter anymore. Nothing does and nothing ever will.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, death is freedom from all suffering, it is true peace and it is what I look forward too. I wish you the best with your plans and I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[BabyFears]

You have such a beautiful way with words, it's like you were adding beauty to your pain, to your coming death. I think I understand how you see death as a way out, an end to suffering and disenchantment of life. When you get closer to death, it's like you could see things others can't and maybe that's why we can all relate to each other in some way on that forum. Maybe we see life as it really is, and it's terrifying and painful. I'm really sorry life has brought you there. I wish you the best in your plans, I hope you will find peace

 

[Braindead Atheist]

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You have such a beautiful way with words, it's like you were adding beauty to your pain, to your coming death. I think I understand how you see death as a way out, an end to suffering and disenchantment of life. When you get closer to death, it's like you could see things others can't and maybe that's why we can all relate to each other in some way on that forum. Maybe we see life as it really is, and it's terrifying and painful. I'm really sorry life has brought you there. I wish you the best in your plans, I hope you will find peace

Thankyou, I hope you find peace too. I think I'm finally there. Im okay with the void. I know what I need to do before I go and I'm going to do it. I agree with you, we all seem to relate on this forum. We see death as a right and a way out. I am happy that it's all going to be over soon.

 

[Ch92921]

For me the fear gets less and less

 

[BabyFears]

It's great that you can find some relief knowing you will be at peace soon, good luck with everything ! Pm me if you want to talk before you go

 

[Nolife33]

Maybe try to love that wilhelp

 

[motel rooms]

Maybe try to love that wilhelp

Love is for me the answer

who cares it's all bout the love

Lay off the coke.