Venting New year's resolution: thin or dead 2022

[Sicsadsupergirl]

This is the first time in my life I'm making a new year's resolution. I will not be an alive fat person anymore by the end of 2022. I'm getting tested for some things that could explain why I gained 80kg within the last 4 years. If it turns out there's nothing wrong and I'm just a lazy undisciplined piece of shit, I'll either get bariatric surgery (which itself has a high mortality rate) and be on the way to being thinner, or finally CBT. Putting it here to hold myself accountable and needed to share. I need this situation over. I can't go on living like this. It has to end, one way or another. If at least I was a normal kind of fat with big boobs and big butt, but I just have tiny boobs and a huge stomach and just look like a fucking pear. It needs to end. I can't live like this anymore.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are in this situation. It can be horrible being trapped in this human body. It is understandable wanting to exit when you are constantly suffering. I wish you the best, whatever happens.

 

[orange]

Hey, some people could never find the strenght in them to even start making such a big change, and it seems you're already on the right track by going to the doctors and getting tested. Good for you, you deserve a good quality of life and you sound like the type to achieve it out of spite for the world.

 

[4eyebiped]

Normally, if you have gotten this far with doctors I would assume yes to the next question, but I never presume them to be competent. Have you been tested for diabetes? For some that can cause a more pronounced stomach compared to the rest of the body. That would also greatly affect any future surgeries and healing thereafter.

Best wishes and I hope everything works out.