Nembutal - Desperate way now need help

[Susan Caswell]

Please can anyone advise if the Nembutal source has gone or any other contact is it safe to order very desperate way now terrified I have to do this somehow myself and still can only think Jump or stop eating and drinking. I barely eat now but must be having enough to live. I want to live and want to die its horrible I had so much living to do I ws so well. Deafening tinnitus and hyperacusis taken terrible toll its the most dementing condition just something I cant tolerate wish it would stop let me get well the anxiety is crippling. Does anyone know of anything to stop the tinnitus I know I cant live with it like this 3 years never stopped never down but so loud your ears vibrate its like being tortured alive I was so well I don't even know what set this off I just want be back how I was calm happy living life to the full or gone ive got to get quiet peace be calm there must be a reason ive no clue came from nowhere wish id get into bed go to sleep and never wake up

 

[a.n.kirillov]

Hey I think we have talked before on another thread.

Right now people seem to be having problems with the C source, although others have recieved their orders. If you're from the US, it might be better to consider ordering from A instead.

Maybe you should look into other methods as well? And keep one handy. It's terrible not having this sorted out. You could look into SN if you would be comfortable with it as well. I would focus all my energy on acquiring one or two reliable methods and then you can relax and focus on trying to get better.

Are you in treatment for the Tinnitus?
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Depending on your living circumstances, it might be better for you to switch to inert gas? If you power through, you can get it sorted out in one or two days (assuming you can drive and have the financial resources). I would make acquiring a method my number one priority right now, because it will calm you down.

 

[Susan Caswell]

Hey I think we have talked before on another thread.

Right now people seem to be having problems with the C source, although others have recieved their orders. If you're from the US, it might be better to consider ordering from A instead.

Maybe you should look into other methods as well? And keep one handy. It's terrible not having this sorted out. You could look into SN if you would be comfortable with it as well. I would focus all my energy on acquiring one or two reliable methods and then you can relax and focus on trying to get better.

Are you in treatment for the Tinnitus?
.
Depending on your living circumstances, it might be better for you to switch to inert gas? If you power through, you can get it sorted out in one or two days (assuming you can drive and have the financial resources). I would make acquiring a method my number one priority right now, because it will calm you down.

Ive tried everything possible for the tinnitus nothing has helped and due to the hyperacusis so bad I cant mask this with anything I could at first it was loud but manageable one ear one noise cant believe its anything like this deafening its horrific I feel so cheated out of the rest of my life I had such happy plans but noise 24/7 deafening that your ears vibrate its inhuman left like this I wish it would stop and let me get well but nearly 3 years never once down its terrible I needed quiet calm peaceful loved my life I wish it was easy to go its not but I cant stay in this torture cant bare it thanks for the info don't know what to do I can only think jump but with my luck wont die and be crippled and still deafening tinnitus there must be something to get it down even im in the UK

 

[JacobsCracker]

Try ju.lian co.wan h.ill (without the dots) on YouTube, he might help

 

[Enough]

Does anyone know if it still possible to get down to Peru or Mexico and get N in person? How easy is it and how much would it cost?

 

[oopswronglife]

Susan...I have tinnitus and hyperacusis too. There was a time it was my biggest problem but much worse ones took over. I tried everything too and eventually just adapting to it did help some. Took years. I sleep with a fan for white noise. I wear earplugs in noisy public places and avoid movie theaters and other obscenely loud things. There is a huge psychosomatic component to this...it may or may not be the cause in a person but it 100% makes it worse. When I am stressed and uncomfortable its way louder and more disruptive. I am not saying you can fix it or its all in your head, but some things like calming exercises (deep breathing etc) and white noise DO help to minimize it and makes it just less enough you don't want to blow your head off. As annoying as such things sound (no pun intended) the more you focus on it the worse it is. Mine is screaming right now because I am thinking about it and writing this about it. I wasn't even recognizing it until I read the post and thought to respond. I know its hard as hell NOT to focus on something so painful...there are thigns I have I cannot ignore...only saying this one HAS receded often and isn't as life ruining as it felt before. Still fucking hate it when I do notice so not minimizing.

Everything is relative and again I remember when it was my main pain in life...I'd kill to have ONLY that right now because I have suffered it so long and have seen it not always be debilitating, but I know back then it seemed hopeless. Just don't waste time and hope on any "cures" you see...they are all bullshit and don't work. I spent a ton trying to solve it. When I gave up it didn't go away, but I often don't notice it or forget about it. I know that's not so helpful, but it's what I have seen happen.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

People still report receiving N from A.