Hi, I Need Help please respond !

[AndyXD6060]

Since a child I have been suffering and going through torture I cant take it more I really cant ig one could say am a failure but I need help please I hope someone here can help me out

About me - I cant share a lot but just a little

-- I was born with cancer and hence my childhood went into hospitals

then even from a small age - I have had abusive parents extremely , I have like - fingers, hands, legs , broken multiple times by them, even back of my head at time, or my neck being snapped almost

Been sexually assulted as well when I was still a teen by a stranger -theres a lot but I cant say cuz too long sorry

theres just constant everyday thing, even at 7-9yr old I have prayed every night and begged god to do something or to help but everyday things have just gotten even worse, For years now my mental limit has been far crossed it even affects my body now - I have panic attack at times / chest heavy, cant breathe well, feeling like to throw up at random moments (not much but is there) and etc
I couldnt life my live at peace now It feels like I cant even die In peace.

Please if anyone can help me out please man just bare with me, my entire life been hell, at this point idk if God even exist or not but I just wanna rest i just want to rest i dont want to think anymore dont want to breathe dont want more pain more torture , like even just thinking i can feel my brain move a bit and so.


I have been looking into painless death or so and well I am In Japan so its hard to get those specific dose/ meds .

Currently I have been looking for helium method but again its so hard am so confused I need someone if anyone can help me, I have so many questions n such .

I will share my discord Id = drew_090

If anyone can then please help me out. i will wait for the responses


Like if u know any aviable easy access painless death or something or if can asnwer the helium method questions please do response

 

[voidstar]

I'm not sure if that's an option available to you or if you've already tried that but maybe trauma therapy? You're not alone.

 

[AndyXD6060]

I'm not sure if that's an option available to you or if you've already tried that but maybe trauma therapy? You're not alone.

sorry

No that wont work... the torture I have well thx to that I have multiple disorders... and for some reason am the most unlucky somehow

I did try for therapy but one said - am far too gone and the other one said they are full with clients so cant have me...


I just wanna rest so if you have any idea or u can help me out please let me know.

 

[suicidalalcoholic]

I don't know how to help you but i hope you get your peace no matter what decision you take

 

[tooafraidtodiez]

One of the most popular method here isnt painless. But its not too brutal and the meds are accessible