Help need advice about ctb!

[allidoiswish]

hello! i was planning to ctb soon (partial hanging) but i dont think ill be able to anymore. i still live with my mother and i do not want her to find my dead body since i know that will traumatize her for the rest of her life, she is the only person i care for and that truly loves me on this earth so i do not want her to go through that. i have thought about jumping, but im scared ill survive and i dont even have access to any of the rooftops near me. I've also thought about waiting a few years until i move out but i really dont want to. i genuinely hate my life lol. should i still try and wait tho? or should i look again for a place where i could jump? thank you for taking the time to read this!

 

[Kanau_Nano]

I'm really sorry you feel like this. It's very hard to deal with. Since you love your mom so much i truly hope you find some hope for life to keep going for the both of you. I'm trying the same thing

 

[allidoiswish]

I'm really sorry you feel like this. It's very hard to deal with. Since you love your mom so much i truly hope you find some hope for life to keep going for the both of you. I'm trying the same thing

thank you so much! youre so nice, i hope you do too <3