Venting my surgery was a failure

[frail]

i got plastic surgery 3 months ago to not look as disgusting but i still look like a fucking freak and want to ctb every time i see the mirror. i feel like ill never be seen as a normal woman and im always going to be lesser than, im always going to be forced to be ugly and disgusting. my surgery was the last hope i had for any will to live and i still am a disgusting monster. i can't stand seeing myself and i want to escape it as soon as possible