My SN will be confiscated

[Ednospatient]

I live in a residential care home and they know about my SN plans so it will be confiscated once it arrives. They are putting me through torture and expect me to suffer and slowly starve to death. I should've killed myself when I first had the chance. Now my everyday life is unbearable and hell. I vomit multiple times a day and I can barely eat anything but the staff here won't let me end my suffering. I've attempted hanging multiple times unsuccessfully and I'm starting to feel like it isn't my method. Its scary.

 

[Shu]

How do they know?

 

[Lost Magic]

I live in a residential care home and they know about my SN plans so it will be confiscated once it arrives. They are putting me through torture and expect me to suffer and slowly starve to death. I should've killed myself when I first had the chance. Now my everyday life is unbearable and hell. I vomit multiple times a day and I can barely eat anything but the staff here won't let me end my suffering. I've attempted hanging multiple times unsuccessfully and I'm starting to feel like it isn't my method. Its scary.

Well it doesn't help that you told them about it, that's for sure.

 

[hopelessgirl]

I'm so sorry :-(

 

[Ednospatient]

Well it doesn't help that you told them about it, that's for sure.

They would know anyway

 

[WhiteDespair]

anbesol

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I live in a residential care home and they know about my SN plans so it will be confiscated once it arrives. They are putting me through torture and expect me to suffer and slowly starve to death. I should've killed myself when I first had the chance. Now my everyday life is unbearable and hell. I vomit multiple times a day and I can barely eat anything but the staff here won't let me end my suffering. I've attempted hanging multiple times unsuccessfully and I'm starting to feel like it isn't my method. Its scary.

Can u tells us more about how they put u in this situation? A residential care home? Is that similar to a nursing home?

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really horrible what you are going through, it is so cruel how they expect you to suffer like that against your wishes. I am sorry that you are in this situation, I wish that we lived in a world where our right to die is respected and then we could exit peacefully when the time is right for us. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[disabledlife]

Did you buy the SN on the internet? Will the SN be sent by mail? Is there a way to hide the SN? Does your retirement home have the right to search the inside of your mail? Does your nursing home have the right to search inside your room? Does your retirement home have the right to search your pockets, for example? I hope that in your country there are laws that protect your privacy and intimacy, even in establishments like retirement homes. You are not incarcerated in prison, so logically, these establishments do not have the right to search anything concerning your private life or your intimacy, and therefore your SN if you hide it in your personal belongings. There are bound to be ways to ensure that the SN is not confiscated from you.

 

[WhiteDespair]

I suspect the facility is an inpatient residental facility for treating eating disorders.