My sister hates me

[Ghostly]

My sister used to let her partners hit me and didn't really do much but give me ice packs for my wounds, she makes fun of me and laughs at me, acts like she cares but doesn't, ignores me for days sometimes months, used to throw stuff at me when I was younger during arguments, and well now I know she really does hate me this morning I woke up to a text that said "I hate you don't talk to me" and I feel crushed she was really all I had and my only friend in this decayed world I feel so alone plus she gave the gift I gave her away to one of her friends I feel lost I want to ctb but I'm scared of what my mom will think and I don't want her to cry and suffer plus all my dumbass attempts have failed so I feel no need to even try again even though I desperately want to!

 

[PeacefulTonic]

What methods have you tried in the past? Do you really want to ctb? I feel that if you ever have any doubts, it probably just isn't your time yet

 

[Ghostly]

What methods have you tried in the past? Do you really want to ctb? I feel that if you ever have any doubts, it probably just isn't your time yet

I've tried overdose and hanging

 

[exhausteduntreatable]

I've tried overdose and hanging

My sister and I have a bad relationship too. Not nearly as bad as yours. I am sorry she is so incredibly abusive and chooses dates over you. Very cruel. I'm starting to feel like a gun is one of the best methods but I hate the mess/ trauma to the first on the scene.

 

[Ghostly]

My sister and I have a bad relationship too. Not nearly as bad as yours. I am sorry she is so incredibly abusive and chooses dates over you. Very cruel. I'm starting to feel like a gun is one of the best methods but I hate the mess/ trauma to the first on the scene.

Yea I'm thinking of acquiring a gun sometime somehow well I'll see I guess

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have to deal with someone like that. Some people are just so cruel. I can imagine it must be frustrating to have failed attempts, it is one of the things that holds me back the fact that I could fail. It really is difficult to ctb, we all deserve an option of euthanasia. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.