My new suicide attempt

[braintorture]

How about your mother? Did she catch eye of your attempts?
How about your mother? Did she catch eye of your attempts?

My mother currently doesn't suspect a thing. I did eventually request for help but the usual - she doesn't understand mental illnesses and spent the whole hour talking about nonsensical bs

 

[Exhausted546]

My mother currently doesn't suspect a thing. I did eventually request for help but the usual - she doesn't understand mental illnesses and spent the whole hour talking about nonsensical bs

Full suspension didn't work? When the hiker found you after 1-2 minutes ,you had already initiated hanging, were you passed out?

 

[braintorture]

Full suspension didn't work? When the hiker found you after 1-2 minutes ,you had already initiated hanging, were you passed out?

No I was starting to when he caught me. It wasn't full tho it was partial

 

[XXXTENTACION]

Have you considered an exit bag? A little more in preparation and planning but once you've got yourself a quiet 20-30 minutes, at most, you're at peace.
Thats been my plan for a while now, had a failed attempt a while back but it's all still sitting there waiting for me when the time is right.

 

[braintorture]

Im currently infront of train tracks rn

 

[XXXTENTACION]

Im currently infront of train tracks rn
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Sorry dude, my bad.
I've tried to follow all your posts and I wish you all the best. I can tell you it has been an emotional rollercoaster just reading it so I can't begin to imagine what going through your mind.
Best wishes and I hope to meet you soon x

 

[metfan647]

Im currently infront of train tracks rn
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You still about bro?

 

[braintorture]

Unfortunately the people in the chat told me it's going to be hard to push through so I just returned into the hotel room.

Suicide is so hard man :(

 

[itsgone2]

Unfortunately the people in the chat told me it's going to be hard to push through so I just returned into the hotel room.

Suicide is so hard man :(

It really is. It's awful really.

 

[39hatsune]

I cried a little and I wrote my letter. The hang and knot is ready.

Good bye SaSu

i hope you can find peace whether that be alive or following through with your decision

 

[disabledlife]

How did you overcome si so well? I mean you mentioned you can't wait for tonight and also its rare that i saw someone on sasu who after a failed attempt few days later is planning another attempt. It all seems like your wish to be dead is very strong maybe from a lot of suffering but so did i suffer a lot in this shit life so i wonder what is it that i don't see and realize why am I still in this shit life trapped….could you maybe give an advice what helped you to go into action and just do it?

The survival instinct is an enemy against all pacific death (CTB and active death assistance like assisted suicide and even euthanasia and all classic "natural deaths"). I seen a lot of people fight against their deaths because of SI. The better death is always pacific deaths without pain, especially with sleep. The better death without recovery is a violent fast CTB but no guaranty of no pain. It's always a torture to prevent death against lucid voluntarily of the person who ask to end his life. I think always the better death is simply let the choice to all person to decide the time and way to end their life in any time, but lucid and no pressure. In general a majority of persons continue to live with a choice guaranty, but only few countries have theses choices and a lot of restrictions like no psychiatric ill, big physical ill, etc.

 

[dalemar]

Im currently infront of train tracks rn
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At least no one saw you this time, so you are still free, look at the positive side.

 

[black_blooded_heart]

I have major depression and disorders and ptsd and ocd and many more.

I wish one day medicine and treatment will get better, and all these mental illnesses that we struggle with (and are sometimes diagnosed for even 10 or 15 years before full diagnosis and right treatment), will be easier to manage and faster recognized to get faster and better treatment in the future, in order to not suffer for years, like we often do...