My mental illness took away my life

[Funeralprincess]

I had it all before I developed bipolar. I had the education, the handsome well off man that everyone told me I'd "never find", great job prospects, and more. Then, bipolar came and clenched her claws on all of my happiness, sending me into the pits of societal hell. I have cried in sadness and anger at the loss of the life that made me happy and when people say "you may get a chance at hope and happiness" I roll my eyes because I had that. I had ALL of that after enduring trauma, only for bipolar to develop and take away my chance. Delusional optimists are stupidly plagued by this idea we have many chances at hope and starting over, which just isn't true. I'm developing severe heart issues and sicknesses at a young age because of all of this and I can hardly make it to my college classes, but I have to keep up appearances for a few more months and it's annoying the shit out of me.
I hate this vile planet and the fact those of us with mental issues are deemed to be deserving of losing everything good all because we are sick. I'm dreading having to live through one more birthday of mine because all that will be on my mind is killing myself and I have to put a face on and pretend like I love being alive another fucking year. Life is a joke if you're not neurotyoical. I hate it here and there's not a damn thing I'll miss about this shit hole except my cat, who is the most precious sweetest kitty alive

 

[jodes2]

Yeah I just got banned on a Reddit sub for arguing against pro-lifers saying there's more opportunities ahead. Sorry your bipolar made you lose everything, it's harsh. What are you going to do with your cat if you CTB?

 

[Topacio]

Delusional optimists are stupidly plagued by this idea we have many chances at hope and starting over, which just isn't true

People talk for the sake of talking. Those who have never suffered something like this can never understand the pain and loss we carry with us. We live in silence, with that weight on our shoulders, with thousands of questions but without finding answers.

 

[Funeralprincess]

People talk for the sake of talking. Those who have never suffered something like this can never understand the pain and loss we carry with us. We live in silence, with that weight on our shoulders, with thousands of questions but without finding answers.

You wrote this so perfectly

Yeah I just got banned on a Reddit sub for arguing against pro-lifers saying there's more opportunities ahead. Sorry your bipolar made you lose everything, it's harsh. What are you going to do with your cat if you CTB?

BANNED?! Why, because you're telling the truth? That's so stupid. Pro lifers have lost their minds and what I hate the most is some of them will try to use their own mental health struggles as examples… they'll say how they found happiness again and blah blah blah and I'm like, not everyone gets a lot of chances. They hate to hear the truth so they silence you.

Honestly, I'm finding a good safe home for her. I'll never just leave her without resources because she's a good kitty

 

[jodes2]

You wrote this so perfectly



BANNED?! Why, because you're telling the truth? That's so stupid. Pro lifers have lost their minds and what I hate the most is some of them will try to use their own mental health struggles as examples… they'll say how they found happiness again and blah blah blah and I'm like, not everyone gets a lot of chances. They hate to hear the truth so they silence you.

Honestly, I'm finding a good safe home for her. I'll never just leave her without resources because she's a good kitty

Pro-lifers make my blood boil. They're absolutely everywhere tearing a new hole for anyone who's pro-choice. What fucking right do they have to interfere

 

[thebunny]

I roll my eyes because I had that. I had ALL of that after enduring trauma, only for bipolar to develop and take away my chance.

i feel your pain and suffering. i had everything too and i was living my dream life. i was actually happy! then mental illness had to swoop in and caused me to self-sabotage and lose it all. went to therapy for a little bit after an incident and was told that i had bpd. it explained everything a little too late.

i give up trying to pretend that i'm okay. i give up on life. i'm a lost cause and there's no changing that. i can't keep living like this everyday, like i'm at war with my mind 24/7. it's exhausting and i want and need to be at peace.

 

[Funeralprincess]

i feel your pain and suffering. i had everything too and i was living my dream life. i was actually happy! then mental illness had to swoop in and caused me to self-sabotage and lose it all. went to therapy for a little bit after an incident and was told that i had bpd. it explained everything a little too late.

i give up trying to pretend that i'm okay. i give up on life. i'm a lost cause and there's no changing that. i can't keep living like this everyday, like i'm at war with my mind 24/7. it's exhausting and i want and need to be at peace.

I totally get that. I was so happy for once too. My disease caused me to sabotage also and it's been hell ever since. I stopped pretending to be okay too, because people around me were saying that I seem so strong, and it gave them the excuse to mistreat me because I "could handle it". I can't wait to die to say the least

 

[FuneralCry]

Many people are delusional as to the cruel reality of this existence. It's best to take no notice of those who say things like everything will always improve. It would be different if they were in a similar situation. Maybe those types of people say positive things as they don't want to accept the fact that things could potentially get so horrible for them to the point that they want to ctb. After all, life is unpredictable and uncertain and things can easily get worse for anyone.

 

[brokensea]

We are in the dark ages when it comes to mental health. We aren't supported or understood. Society doesn't want us or understand us. People can't deal with us. It makes things harder on top of what you already deal with having a mental health issue. People think you're lying or want attention or can control it. They get tired of dealing with it. It's no different than having a physical disability to have something in your brain out of your control but if you are any outlier in a capitalist society you are left on the outskirts. If you can't work you won't have enough money to live or eat. Our world treats mental health disorders horribly.

 

[Hangnail]

I get where you're coming from. Something similar happened to me. Hugs.