My memory and cognition is really bad does anyone else have the same problem?

[Buffy5120]

 

[demuic]

Yes, it's gotten worse over time. I don't remember most of my childhood but I also try not to dwell on it too much. But it is annoying not being able to remember things like what happened in shows I watched or video games I played.

 

[HelloHell]

Yes, happened to me

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

My short term memory is to a point where i don't think i've managed to make a single cup of tea this week without forgetting it for several hours lol.

 

[dr3amw4lking]

my memory is literally garbage nowadays LMAO. i think my overall focus level is the absolute worse tho

 

[whywere]

YES, my depression basically took my memory away. I am just in the moment now.

 

[Buffy5120]

My short term memory is to a point where i don't think i've managed to make a single cup of tea this week without forgetting it for several hours lol.

Same my memory is so bad i was typing a reply back to someone and actually repeated my question twice i have this app called "alarmed" its the "green app" with a finger on it its a life saver for people like us it can reminder you things by minutes etc

YES, my depression basically took my memory away. I am just in the moment now.

I know its really scaring me like i think i have to ctb very soon because i know it will only get worse from here i also have thyroid problems and the medicine makes it so much worse

 

[NightmareTour]

I have the brain power of a brick. My main talent is forgetting what happened in a conversation I had 10 seconds ago.

 

[Buffy5120]

I have the brain power of a brick. My main talent is forgetting what happened in a conversation I had 10 seconds ago.

The only thing I read about is how the Mediterranean diet cured this lady's dementia I dont know if it can work for us though I guess because it has anti inflammatory properties

 

[dropdeadfred]

I swear I have holes in my brain. Can relate so much.

 

[Weary Soul]

Yes.

Too many head injuries, including a brain bleed coupled with absolutely no help to cope with my deficiencies from friends, family, medical professionals, society....

Given the nature of my injuries, they will not get better, only worse, so I (personal decision only given my medical condition) am opting out before I no longer have the brain function to make that choice.

I can really relate to this and I am so very sorry so many of you know what this is like.

<3

 

[Moon Flower]

My brain is total mush tbh, I can't even clear video games I was beating easily when I was like 6

 

[SmellyRat]

Hopefully my alcohol consumption and pills will fry my brain so i can't think clearly anymore.
The more brain damage the better.

 

[Weary Soul]

What was the question again?

Oh, maybe I answered this already, *scrolls up to look*

I am mentally rolling my eyes at myself*, but this is what it is like for me on a much smaller scale.

<3

 

[NegativeSymptoms]

Yes, I even have problems processing information, unable to watch movies and basically stuck on internal monologue. This leaves me bedridden because I am too retarded to do anything. My cognitive impairment is the main reason I will CTB.

 

[Deleted member 94]

Same here use to be very good now a piece of shit.

 

[Wraith]

Yeah, a 3yo would have a better short-term memory than me.

 

[Lupgevif]

I do, has been getting progressively worse throughout the years, I'm at my all times low and no sign of improving.

 

[turin]

same! it's annoying i'd be smart if i could remember anythin from the amount of info i try to take in. sometimes people are talking and i really have to concentrate to make sense of their sentence. sometimes people ask me to do something and it's gone in under a minute!

 

[inhale_exhale]

So much space here between my ears
It might be a recent thing or maybe it's suddenly become more obvious, I'm not too sure.
I try to write or draw or string together something compelling and all I manage to draw are blanks (pun not intended). I've got fluff for brains and it's part of the reason why I'm so reluctant to go socialize with people because I can't manage to think through anything more complex than asking inane questions, looking for help, or doing what I'm told. I'm so incredibly vulnerable right now, people around me can sense my fragility.

 

[NightmareTour]

Yes.

Too many head injuries, including a brain bleed coupled with absolutely no help to cope with my deficiencies from friends, family, medical professionals, society....

Given the nature of my injuries, they will not get better, only worse, so I (personal decision only given my medical condition) am opting out before I no longer have the brain function to make that choice.

I can really relate to this and I am so very sorry so many of you know what this is like.

<3

TBIs are a horrible thing to live with, and I don't think anyone really understands the extent of it. Everyone seems to think "well you survived, and you SEEM normal, so it's nothing to worry about." Nobody ever tells you that it's going to get worse over time, or how much its going to impact your every day life.

Brain injury is one of my main reasons for my decision to ctb too. Some people choose to live knowing that they one day won't be able to function at all, but I think it's a very reasonable decision to choose not to. Watching your own mental abilities slip away is torture, and you're usually completely aware of it happening up until a point where you already couldn't do anything for yourself for a long time.

 

[Weary Soul]

TBIs are a horrible thing to live with, and I don't think anyone really understands the extent of it. Everyone seems to think "well you survived, and you SEEM normal, so it's nothing to worry about." Nobody ever tells you that it's going to get worse over time, or how much its going to impact your every day life.

Brain injury is one of my main reasons for my decision to ctb too. Some people choose to live knowing that they one day won't be able to function at all, but I think it's a very reasonable decision to choose not to. Watching your own mental abilities slip away is torture, and you're usually completely aware of it happening up until a point where you already couldn't do anything for yourself for a long time.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. No one understands in my real life - and have actually made things worse so much worse

While I am so grateful that someone understand, I am so very sorry you understand this.

Much love and hugs to you!

On edit: Funny story (well not so funny - kinda like wtf?) About 1 week after release from the hospital (craniotomy, coma, not supposed to survive), I told the occupational therapist that was visiting me that I was having serious short-term memory problems. She said, oh that is age related. I was so out of it, I did not think of a reply in time. But really - Prior to the brain bleed I was fine, had a remarkable memory, a high level job making good money, and not less than a week after release from the hospital I can't remember how to spell someone's name ?? How on earth is that age related in a couple of months??? It is horrific.)

 

[Buffy5120]

Yeah this reply is to all of u that commented thats why im struggling and have to keep asking around about sn like what to do and to make sure i write it down even though ive been here for almost a year now because i keep forgetting everything its also fucking insane how i have gi issues as well so this is why i feel like sn will be extremely difficult my life is a fucking joke the universe keeps fucking with me i can never get a break

 

[TooConscious]

My brain has gradually turned to mush to put it simply. Despite periods lasting months attempting to fix it taking tons of vitamins etc.

 

[Ardesevent]

I am also a member of the mushy-wushy brain club. Having the memory of a old-man with dementia is not very fun.

 

[lucrod99]

My memory is so fucked up. I mean, every time i try to remember something is all messed, i think is the stress and the inferiorty complex that i have... and always i create situtations to make me feel better... but man even in work i'm forgetting things it's scary

 

[antigone_iris]

Yes, I have the same problem. My memory used to be good, but now I struggle to remember things. I guess depression is the culprit.

 

[Pharmaruined]

The only thing I read about is how the Mediterranean diet cured this lady's dementia I dont know if it can work for us though I guess because it has anti inflammatory properties

Supplements Ps100 and citicholine taken together helps alot with memory and brain fog.. everybody that's taken it always comes back to me and says it made a big difference

 

[voyager]

Same. Especially short term memory. Takes minor distractions to forget about what I was doing or wanted to. Seldom bother with books anymore because I can't remember the page I read before. Shifting information from short term to long term memory is a disaster too and makes it near impossible to learn anything new.

I sometimes wonder if being caught in the moment is what makes it so hard to reflect on one's situation as a whole and break the cycle because one fails to see the bigger picture. Repetition of misery, not accumulation. Without a functioning memory one is forced into the same reaction every time. Taken to the extreme the following documentary illustrates what it's like. He can't ctb because he doesn't comprehend his situation beyond a few seconds and just jumps from one moment of consciousness to the next:

 

[Wayfaerer]

Years of phenibut and kratom abuse has left my with what feels like dementia. It's even scarier considering I'm not even 30 yet. I don't know if it's permanent by this point but I guess it doesn't matter considering looming CTB.