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TheYounger

TheYounger

Aria Math
Jun 7, 2020
140
My friends and family. Fuck all of it. This shit doesn't matter once I die. I'll leave it all behind. I don't know know. My date to ctb should be soon. I can't deal with my loneliness and sadness anymore. I can't bear it.
 
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bing

Member
Apr 15, 2022
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Lol you have friends and family. I got literally nothing.
 
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its-about-time

its-about-time

nope
Mar 19, 2022
807
Lol you have friends and family. I got literally nothing.
Suffering shouldn't be a competition.

I have good things in my life too. Doesn't change the suffering. I'm sorry @TheYounger you're in this space. I'm certain I'll die of suicide too, always have been, it's just a matter of when I guess.
 
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bing

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Apr 15, 2022
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Suffering shouldn't be a competition.

I have good things in my life too. Doesn't change the suffering. I'm sorry @TheYounger you're in this space. I'm certain I'll die of suicide too, always have been, it's just a matter of when I guess.

Oh sorry if I offended anyone
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,611
I'm sorry that you are suffering so much. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are desperate to leave. I cannot imagine myself dying from anything other than suicide as well. I wish you the best in whatever happens, I hope you find relief from pain.
 
fox_wannabe

fox_wannabe

Enlightened
Jul 7, 2021
1,112
My friends and family. Fuck all of it. This shit doesn't matter once I die. I'll leave it all behind. I don't know know. My date to ctb should be soon. I can't deal with my loneliness and sadness anymore. I can't bear it.
You say you have friends and family. Why do you feel lonely?
 
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Mtnwildflowers

Student
Jan 14, 2022
182
Suffering shouldn't be a competition.

I have good things in my life too. Doesn't change the suffering. I'm sorry @TheYounger you're in this space. I'm certain I'll die of suicide too, always have been, it's just a matter of when I guess.
It doesn't change the suffering but when you lose those things too after having friends and family at one point, you realize it can really actually get worse. I thought I had it horrible when those things/people were still around.. when you lose them too it can bring you to a low you never knew existed. But you're right it's not a competition on who is suffering more. Just another perspective that I didn't have when I still had those things in my life.
 
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its-about-time

its-about-time

nope
Mar 19, 2022
807
It doesn't change the suffering but when you lose those things too after having friends and family at one point, you realize it can really actually get worse. I thought I had it horrible when those things/people were still around.. when you lose them too it can bring you to a low you never knew existed. But you're right it's not a competition on who is suffering more. Just another perspective that I didn't have when I still had those things in my life.
Excellent point all around.
 
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Mtnwildflowers

Student
Jan 14, 2022
182
You say you have friends and family. Why do you feel lonely?
I use to still feel lonely around friends and family. They are typically people who can't truly 100 percent understand you and what's going on in your internal world. I could never disclose what was really happening to me to those people. If you do, those people won't want to be around you. You become the person who is too "heavy" and "hard" to be around.
 
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fox_wannabe

fox_wannabe

Enlightened
Jul 7, 2021
1,112
I use to still feel lonely around friends and family. They are typically people who can't truly 100 percent understand you and what's going on in your internal world. I could never disclose what was really happening to me to those people. If you do, those people won't want to be around you. You become the person who is too "heavy" and "hard" to be around.
Yeah I feel that. I am really heavy. But I am fake when i am light.
 
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Mtnwildflowers

Student
Jan 14, 2022
182
Yeah I feel that. I am really heavy. But I am fake when i am light.
Yea exactly. You can still feel lonely even around people if you aren't able to act in true congruence with yourself and how your feeling
 
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fox_wannabe

fox_wannabe

Enlightened
Jul 7, 2021
1,112
Yea exactly. You can still feel lonely even around people if you aren't able to act in true congruence with yourself and how your feeling
I would love to continue this conversation but I need to go.
 
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Mtnwildflowers

Student
Jan 14, 2022
182
Yeah I feel that. I am really heavy. But I am fake when i am light.
Yea exactly. You can still feel lonely even around people if you aren't able to act in true congruence with yourself and
Oh sorry if I offended anyone
i think a lot of people come to this forum because they literally have no one and some still have people around. It's a mixture, and you never know who you are interacting with. Although I wish I would have tried to be more aware and grateful when I still had people around. It does change things when you're truly alone and isolated. Not that anyones suffering is more or less.
 
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