My life is smoke and mirrors

[narval]

So many time being dishonest, manipulative, elusive, twisting and telling the facts in my own way, just for avoiding the stress of another social matter, hiding the true reasons of leaving jobs in order of avoid larger explanations, directly lying about job applications or formations wich i didn't tried even though I said yes just because i barely have the energy to deal with it & absurd anxiety/fear that generates to me.

Currently I have the feeling that I am merging with that liar mask. I've found myself improvising lies at random situations. Why? because i can, because it's faster explanation, because i pass of giving explanations, because i don't wanna tell you my life (despite you are family or friends).

It's like i'm confusing my real-me with that mask. Idk, perhaps me and the mask always where 2 real aspects of the same person instead of a real one AND a costume

 

[ENDOFTIME]

Describes me also

 

[fastFWD]

smoke and mirrors here too. no lies per say but constant pretending and false relating. really drains you over time. how to escape before insanity?

 

[Painless_end]

You are not alone

 

[narval]

smoke and mirrors here too. no lies per say but constant pretending and false relating. really drains you over time. how to escape before insanity?

That's the big question