forgotten15
Specialist
- Aug 24, 2021
- 332
My method is SN. I have everything I need.
I have been suicidal all my life, but the hope that things will one day change for me kept me alive until today, at 31.
I am empy, hurt, traumatised of what this experience called life has been for me. I tried, I really tried to be normal, but I lack something, I just can't seem to find a way to make things work.
I always wanted to feel happiness and love, but I came to the conclusion that happiness is not for me, it will never be, same for love.
I know my end is near, there is nothing left for me here. I am so scared of what I will find after death, I just hope my suffering will end. I keep imagining the moment I will be drinking that glass of sn and I get shivers, this is how scared I am. But my pain is bigger than my fear, I am in such a low point in my life that all I want is to dissappear. It's becoming harder and harder to get out of bed in the morning and face reality, i am so tired, I feel like I lived a 1000 lives.
I will leave this world with my soul shattered in pieces and pieces. My eyes have cried oceans of tears in 31 years, I just want everything to stop, I need peace and quiet. I can't wait to become nothing.
I hope i will overcome my fears in the upcoming week.I had to get this off my chest and you guys are the only ones I could tell. I have no one.
I have been suicidal all my life, but the hope that things will one day change for me kept me alive until today, at 31.
I am empy, hurt, traumatised of what this experience called life has been for me. I tried, I really tried to be normal, but I lack something, I just can't seem to find a way to make things work.
I always wanted to feel happiness and love, but I came to the conclusion that happiness is not for me, it will never be, same for love.
I know my end is near, there is nothing left for me here. I am so scared of what I will find after death, I just hope my suffering will end. I keep imagining the moment I will be drinking that glass of sn and I get shivers, this is how scared I am. But my pain is bigger than my fear, I am in such a low point in my life that all I want is to dissappear. It's becoming harder and harder to get out of bed in the morning and face reality, i am so tired, I feel like I lived a 1000 lives.
I will leave this world with my soul shattered in pieces and pieces. My eyes have cried oceans of tears in 31 years, I just want everything to stop, I need peace and quiet. I can't wait to become nothing.
I hope i will overcome my fears in the upcoming week.I had to get this off my chest and you guys are the only ones I could tell. I have no one.
